Keep on trying. Learn from your relapses and give 120% everyday. There are no shortcuts. You must go through the temporary pain to get permanent recovery.
Yeah, you can. It's freaking hard man. It's so difficult. The cards are stacked against you. Triggers everywhere. Porn is so easy to access. Our brains don't typically have to deal with this kind of crap. But it's not impossible. You're just trying to give yourself a way out. Don't do that.