Will I Get There ?

I wanted to quit PMO to see that I can do something meaningful in life. Apart from this yes I really wanted to quit PORN and MASTURBATION because it was becoming like a solution to the problems that had been created by me in my life. Yes problems created by me, thats true like taking career lightly, wasting time, etc. These led to anxiety, hopelessness, fear, depression for me. Combining these feelings also ruined me physically. PORN and MASTURBATION was like VALUE ADDED SERVICE to these. Another biggest problem of mine is FICKLE MINDNESS.

Apart from PMO I started NoFap to see for myself that I can do something positive with me concretely and conquer these problems of mine simultaneously. Till date I managed to stay PORN and MASTURBATION free for 117 days, yes among these days I masturbated once but that too without PORN, if not it will resulted in 118 days, but I am PORN free for 118 days.

When I see fellow Fapstronauts mentioning their log of journey in their post I often tell them to enjoy whatever days they have managed to reach and to keep up their journey. But now for somedays I am disturbed by the thought Will I be able to reach to that point or place that I wish to get thorugh NoFap and my effort to combat anxiety, depression, fear, etc. I am confused whether I will be able to have a normal sex, a fair career, a descent health, etc. Yes thats true previously I was not true to myself but this time trying to be true and thorugh that these 118 days PORN FREE was possible and now trying to maintain to morning exercise in regular manner.

Now for somedays this thought that will I be able to reach to that point or plave that I wish is continously putting me down.