...I am done with this and never going to look back, I get triggered and begin starving for porn and masturbation. It happened just now. I woke up his morning and had a "great time" with my wife and about 3 hours laters I am having a ridiculously strong urge to see naked women. I flirted on the Internet with non-porn entertainment news that I knew would have suggestive pictures and then jumped off before it got beyond that or into masturbation (needless to say all that did was poke the bear and make me want porn and masturbation even more). But what I am trying to process is, how can I in one moment feel like I will never desire porn again and, in what feels like the next moment, want to soak in every inch of 38 million naked female bodies all at once. It's very frustrating.
