When you realise how fucked your life is from wanking habits

Basically I've lost interest in many aspects of life. Sex especially. In this day and age you have to have a)b)c)d ) etc etc that and I'm never out ,no social life whatso ever and tbh I don't really want one either

Basically it's got so bad and Ive become so complacent in not giving a fuck I started jerking off to trans cams . Simply because they look pretty much identical to women except . The reason why . You can say shit and it's not a creepy weird scenario . They love it because well they have the same sex drive as us . I always put my thumb over the bottom half .... But to my brain though it just looks like a women jerking a dick ..those are sexual.ques to my brain . If it was just an obvious dude it would have no reaction. I've seen this before not by choice but does absolutely nothing to me . It's simply.the fact it looks like women.

So that's my problem . That's how skewed my real life perception is jerking off to trans cams so I can say some nasty shit that they love . Because my actual life I have basically gone off the radar communication with anyone on a daily basis feels pointless . female cams is usually give me money give me moneeey and you definitely grow bored of that even if they are hot . It's like jerking off to a girl sitting in a 2 way room which feels weird because I know what women are like

I don't fancy jerking off to being a took beta while someone directs to money . That's not a turn on. If you were about to have sex or even just out to dinner and someone kept hinting to buy her something that would make me question why I like her beside physical attraction . There is a lot of attractive models but Alot of cam models aren't that attractive .

. But yea I'll Jack off to ts cams because it's like an actual women and you can dominate the situation because they respond with dirty talk . Volume is always off

I know how fucked this sounds but it's as close to a turn on as you can get from real life when someone is actually responsive . Women Cams just seems like it's for suckers . Gorgeous hot women but they literally could not give a fuck about you and just want money

I'm just watching porn for some sexual stimulation and this is how fucked up its got .