What to do ? (warning: triggering words and sexual content)

Hello Everyone, I am 16 year old and I'm currently on day 72 NoFap, This addiction started when I was 11 or 12, As time went by I started going into darker topics like incest, hentai, furry, lots of weird fetish, characters from videogames, animes and shows, and the worst stuff real people that I know in real life, rape and loli which has been haunting me through most of this streak that I'm on at the moment because of the guilt. Sometimes I watched stuff involving real people and if I did it was some weird fetish or with people consenting from what I remember.

Now the main problem is I cant forgive myself for the stuff that I fapped to and i feel like it is chaining me down and not allowing me to move on because im constantly thinking about how i fapped to that stuff and how I dont deserve anything, I also feel like I am a terrible person, creep and a pedophile or rapist because I fapped to people i know in real life, underage characters from animes and shows, loli, rape hentai and rape/bdsm with real people which im pretty sure was consenting cause it was on website like reddit or ph.

Because of all this Im struggling to move on and continue with what I want to do in life so any advice would be good.(sorry if this is in the wrong thread) and Thanks for reading .

 

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