What is my real motivation not to PMO?

Stakes ARE HIGHER. First of it's my life that I am selling, it's my poor soul that is being absorbed by the cheap (or not so cheap) flesh.

I am drowning, and sinking deeper after a porn session, things always quickly get worse after the first one, one or two days later, another streak is dying and another part of myself and my identity.

Struggling with anxiety, fears overthinking, procrastination, lack of willpower, motivation all that will get worse if I watch porn and the opposite stands correct.

I am empowering and giving space to grow to the worst parts of myself. My sins. My personal ones. I am accumulating bad karma. Also, I am ruining my relationships with friends, family, strangers, loved ones... I am ruining my relationship with my true self, the real me, the clean me, the clear me, the lucid me.

I am putting a brain fog over myself. I am fogging my subconscious mind. I am wasting my precious time. I am wasting my precious energy.

And all that spirals and spirals back and forth. It is so much worse than just a fap, just a sesh, just some flesh. It is killing my life and all that is precious to me.

Less energy=more procrastination. Less mindfulness=less awareness. Less love=more hatred. Less discipline=more sins. Bad karma=bad karma. More fear=less freedom. Getting further away from my true self=getting further away from my life goal.

What is your REAL motivation? What is your real reason?

 

Many will thank you brother. I also try to wake at least my friends up.