What is it that makes you relapse?

Block these sites

 

Typically I find myself minimizing: "aw it's just some images, it's not that bad," etc. Or I start 'the negotiation' in my head: "I'll only stroke for a few minutes--and I won't let myself O."

Usually the other circumstances include isolation, idle time/boredom, and unstructured time. So keeping an eye on those has been helpful for me.

 

"it's just a peek"

 

The fact it's become so mainstream starts messing with your take on it after months. It is normalized which for me personally can be a trigger to fall back into these behaviors. The creepy thing is that even after months it doesn't take long to end up where you left, being watching extreme content, content that makes you doubt your reality even. I went from straight to gay to sissy to straight, with the sissification in some way implemented into the straight porn, basically turning where I started off at it into something extremely arousing, fetishes, you name it... This stuff just devours your soul, fortunately we do have a say and it is up to us to strenghten the decisions that will lead to a more fulfilling outcome, both mentally and physically.

 

Anhedonia.

 

Maybe you’re still addicted and you must find ways to stay ‘sober’ for a longer period.

 

It's interesting that you've removed triggers from the equation, because you are right: it isn't always the triggers that do it. In most cases when I've crashed after prolonged periods of abstention they are accompanied by a kind of snowballing of emotions that take the form of fantasy, and then that fantasy seems to be "too much" for me to hold back, and- BAM- I'm right back in the middle of things. And this snowballing sometimes goes on for days before I crash, so I'll spend four or five days just mentally edging and white-knuckling until I slip.

The second, because I'm on some pretty heavy SRIs, is to see if I can still get it up. I'll have no intention of reaching climax, but I might get hard for two seconds and then-BAM- it's all over and I feel like the stupidest shit in the world. This is usually devoid of fantasy or porn. Just myself.

 

Trying to experience the state of bliss by means of a state of euphoria.

 

Yep this checking if i can get hard is the biggest scam of the brain for sure

 

Yep, that's the same for me as well. After a month or two of abstinence, you start to have this thoughts in mind.

That's the same for me again, and it happens when you suffer from PIED (like in my case). After a good amount of days (over a month) you start to questioning yourself if there's some sort of advancements regarding PIED. You start fantasizing to see if it can goes up, and you start to do this almost every day to see if there's a progress... until you fall completely and decide to PMO.

 

I am sure that resonates with everyone in this community.

For me, it was sometimes sexual. Strong desires I struggled to control.
Mostly, though, relapses resulted from anxiety or other negative states.
When depression descends you lose motivation to do NoFap or anything.

 

Apathy in my own destiny, or just a general uncaring in the moment when I need laser focus to beat my goal again.

 

For me personally, it's boredom that leads to relapses. Since the 'vid hit our company has sent everyone to work from home and we are not returning to the office. Over time I realized my porn consumption was becoming excessive. It took some time but I figured out that boredom was the reason I was watching porn. When i had slow work days I was consuming porn during the work day. I started a journal and found that I was watching porn around the same time every day. Over the years I have been able to develop a plan that works for me and am currently in my best streak ever of no PMO which is 55 days.