What does matters in life ?

I tried so hard and got so far.

 

The nature of life of the world is change. I look at it as an incredible benefit! If I screw
up, all I have to do is wait, chill out, learn from my mistake, and the world forgets.

So I try to do something good today with a little more effort, willing to take risks and
have an adventure, since it all vanishes anyway.

 

I had to fall to lose it all

 

Have you ever read the Book of Ecclesiastes in the bible? You sound like Qoheleth.

 

Nothing really does matter. The universe is in a constant state of change and there is no end plan or goal. But when I think about it, what really matters is truth and Love. The fact that there is so much suffering in the world matters too because it means we are letting this marvellous thing called life slip through our fingers.

 

The meaning of life is that there is no meaning. Not everything in this existence is meant to be solved. Humans just like to have knowledge about everything and it’s natural. However there has to be unknowns for there to be knowns. We can’t know everything and the meaning of life is one of those things we’ll never know…

 

Life is mere survival instinct. Life does not have sense since the life was created by casualty, and we are the result of casualty, our life is meaningless since we have been generated by a casual bigbang and casually get generated by primordial soup, then become fish, frogs, lizard and then monkey. Everything is relative and good and bad does not exist. Our only purpose is approval of resources, consume, reproduce. We are like gears of a huge mechanism.

This is actually what they probably told you at school. For some reasons the mass production enslaver system wants you to belive so. Now I try to answer on what matters to me
Things that matter for me are: Get wisdom, understand the true reality of nature that isn't mere survival instinct and feel pleasure since they don't last, things like orgasm and masturbation, even if it looks like a pleasure, when they end then we feel sad, because they aren't eternal, then they are illusions and unworth to waste time on it. There are metaphysical realms that aren't seen with organic eyes that deserve my time more than porn and masturbation. Have a humble life and don't get corrupted by power and money, like politicians, philantropes, managers, businessmen do since they are part of feeding ego, like social media where everyone have a perfect life and while you are a looser (while in real life they have every kind of struggle and suffer of many addictions), try to not put myself inside a virtual reality where I'm a winner and a hero while in real life I'm a loser that play videogames and watch porn. And many other things I don't have in my mind right now.

If there is no real purpose and I'm just a slave of consumism and have pleasure with sex, pornograpghy, ecc... then why my consciousness told me that Pornography addiction was a problem and that I need to stop it?

 

In life maters mainly self development

You set goals and achieve them, though things like Porn and other things that are addictive will drag you down,
as they will waste your time, your energy and your health and in the end you will have achieved nothing.

Overcoming the urges and addictions is the one of the most important thing and searching for what you want really want to do is another thing,
as if we don't have social skills we will never become influencers, so the best thing is also base our own expectations and goals with reality,
turning our passions in something that is profitable and that can make our life better.

So life is about goals that we set for ourselves.

 

That depends on what you mean. There are some that matter for most of humankind such as not stealing, murdering or committing adultery. Bravery, tactfulness, self-control and a good work ethic have always been admired.

 

I think what matters is what matters to you. You define your own values and goals, and as long as they do not hurt anyone else then it is alright.