Went 2 months clean then can't even stand 1 day now. Need help on dealing with desires.

Don't beat yourself up too much, recovery is difficult. This weekend I was supposed to study but after waking up feeling awful I had to push study back a few days. There is nothing wrong with that. PAWS symptoms can be difficult to deal with and the best thing you can do is be kind to yourself.

It isn't your fault, it isn't anybody's fault. Just take some time to recover and get back on the horse.

 

The book “ Treating Pornography Addiction “ by Dr. Kevin Skinner was very helpful to my husband. Also Unwanted by Jay Stringer. Path for men has free resources to help as well. Sa/saa meetings are free and very helpful ( but they do promote a higher power) my husband has accountability apps and blockers on all his devices. His friends are his accountability partners.

 

My heart aches for you. I hope you Rise Up again soon and start anew. By no doubts, you have accumulated some useful knowledge about yourself during these two months, which will come you in handy for the next battle.

It happened, shit happens. You feel guilt, and even more painful than that; shame. The absolute lowest levels of energy. Are they bad feelings? Is it bad to feel that way? I think not, and here is why:
The act of engaging in these PMO activities drain your spirit of its vitality and, your life, of opportunities. It is a lesser substitute for Real experiences, which these pixelated, artificial experiences can not emulate. And you know this how? Through guilt, and shame.

They (these emotions) are your silver cord to your Higher Self. A silver cord which your Higher Self transmits information through, to you. Acknowledge them, brother, but do not dwell in them for longer than needed. Your emotions have let you know your path: Now Rise and pursue it.

The 'good feelings' which you experience during PMO should never be considered a compass towards good. Drugs, hard drugs, revenge, you name it; These things all feel goodin the moment we pursue them, and awful afterwards.
Perhaps we must take the opposite direction of these tings, always.

Start anew. Start Stronger this time.

 

When I was going to school I also had a stronger tendency to relapse.. it is definitely much harder to resist PMO when you are sitting in a room and doing studies.. the temptation is literally right there with us continually

are you able to go to a nearby library and do your schoolwork?

if possible, id say you should go to the library and do ALL of your schoolwork. Try and stay out of your house as much as possible.. it is tough.. but I think it might be the only way

 

There is 0 temptation when you know your origin.