Well basically everything is a relapse? I'm emotional Exhaustion

this linked was to my previous post: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/does-this-count-as-relapse.357123/#post-3745102
I think lists down all the things i still continuing looking:

• Boob and ass (not nudity)
• bikini (bra and thong)
• in real life and on screen (not nudity)

even though it not nudity in real life or on screen, considered p-sub and relapse. So, i have to literally avoiding looking at women on the street, even though i can't resist my own nature... I feel like insanity right now... So, i already been relapsed looking to all these p-sub? guess what my point of fucking doing nofap until now... I only want to cut off PMO addiction, i'm no goddamn monk... even a monk might actually think i'm crazy like how come i get triggered to such things. I'm on the edge of giving up on nofap, cause i seriously had enough, i feel suicidal... i do not know what to do.

 

Of course not PIED or Death grip whatever that is! i only focused on not going back to PMO, anything else like bikini and looking at women in real life or on social media, staring at her boob or ass, never actually urge me to masturbate and watch porn. I had done nofap quite awhile, so i already learned to control my impulsiveness, overall i won't let porn take over my life again. and that's it, i'm not on monk mode or PIED stuffs, i won't go that hard on myself.