WE ARE MORE TOUGH THEN ORDINARY

Bro do read this,
It got me through some strong urges.
http://husbandhelphaven.com/porn-addiction-withdrawal-walkthrough/
All the very best!!
Do share this with people who are in need.

 

I just entered my late 20s and I just want an education and job too. I've been going to the gym and temple. Pain and suffering is what you, I and everyone on this website feels when it comes to pmo. Shame, guilt, and regret.

Two years ago, I had to tell the truth. That truth caused my 5 year relationship to end. She eventually left me nine months later. Shame, guilt and regret is what I live with. Never learn a lesson with regret. I cried when I woke up, I cried in the shower, and I cried before I went to sleep. I would cry 5 days out of the week for at least 9 months straight. I do not over exaggerate about me crying alot because it is the sad truth. It felt like someone died. Its been over a year since she left and I still cry but not as often as before. I only went out 5-6 times to socialize out of the whole year. I stayed in my room everyday like it was prison. Dreading about the past, over and over . A nightmare that wouldn't end.


Suicide was on my mind for months. I just couldn't stop thinking. I couldn't stop replaying every bad moment. Porn and games was the only time where I didn't have to think about anything. Everyday I would play games, watch porn, and cry. I was a living zombie. Two years of true depression is something where I wouldn't want anyone to have.

I hit a breaking point in my life. I no longer want to dread about the past, in order for me to stop thinking about the past is to stop PMO . I no longer live in a fantasy because in reality, we live in the moment, and what we do in that moment will affect our future. Make a bad decision now better expect another bad decision later. Talk negative to yourself now best believe you'll say it again later.

You and I and everyone else live this life in this world. There's nothing wrong with the world but we choose to make it a cold world. There'snothing wrong with my computer but I made poor decisions on my computer. Everyday is a new day and literally anything can happen. I might just sin the next day, who knows, but if i do Iwillremember about my shameful past and once I come to my senses (after you pmo) that depression will come quickly. It's so painful that im willing to give up anything to not feel that pain again.


Someone on NOFAP asked , " what do you desire?"

My desire is to not feel that shame, regret and guilt. My desire is to not dread about the past that I caused my 5 year relationship to end. That's why I NOFAP.


Tell me brother, what do you desire?