Want to restart

Hello

So basically its been 3 weeks on this reboot so far. Its been a little easy but w some rough times. Today i have done nothing and i am really thinking and rationing to relapse. Im not making any decisions right now but if i were going to relapse it would be MO w no P and lubricated, soft grip and slow.

I really want to restart because Ive been doing drugs and drinking and i want to MO to get those chemicals out of my system (dont know if this is a thing or not). But mainly bc i messed up and lightly edged like 2 or 3 times today. I cant seem to focus and i am bored af.

How much of a set back would this be, and would this be a good idea to get chemicals out (cocaine, mdma, and xans w drinking and weed). Maybe this is part of the process and it is the way it is and need to push on.

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well i'll just go fuck myself then, not literally lol. I didnt btw and im glad i didnt. thanks to myself. thats really what its all about, but fuck it. keep on keeping on..

 

What kind of drugs? Asking for a friend.

 

Cocaine, mdma, xans, percocet, and drinking/weed (of course)

 

Like a brother from another mother.

 

Don't do it! You'll always feel worse after. Let your brain get the full healing effect that it needs

 

yeah i didnt thank god. A few seconds high isnt worth the benefits ive been getting lately