wanna start a new life

I discovered NoFap last year, managed to get a 65+ days streak without PMO. Then I relapsed masturbating not frequently from September till February this year. I felt better but then I had to spend Covid quarantine alone and from March and I relapsed completely. Masturbation, porn, you name it. Up until now. I've come to understand that yield to the urge even once can lead to devastation that keeps ruining months and years of your life. Now, I want to break free from this addiction.
Actually I feel like I don't have a real porn addiction. I can give it up easily. My problem is masturbation. It's not the excessive frequency (once a day if I don't get laid), but the duration due to edging that is really harmful. As a result, I have had a long-life delayed ejaculation that has caused me to have serious issues with girls when in a serious relationships. It's clear that DE is a consequence of excessive masturbation and my peculiar technique to get off (stroking vigorously, edging, etc.). It's so frustrating and embarrassing.
Now, I want to get a grip on my life changing for the better once and for all. Therefore, I'm asking for your help to embark on this journey and win over all of this.

p.s. my badge is still updating. I've just started the challenge

 

thank you, I'm sorry to hear. I can easily give up porn. It's boring anyway. Also your case seems just one of a mild addiction. However, following NoFap should give you great results, at least you won't have regret that you didn't do anything about to save your relationship. To me, it's crucial to give up whatever kind of orgasm other than that during sex with a woman. It's the only way to overcome my DE. I'm used to death grip, too. It's devastating because it's like your body and your brain are hardwired to orgasm just with certain stimuli (a kind of pressure, a specific part that is more sensitive, etc.).

 

I'll give up PMO and focus myself on personal improvement. Results won't come quickly for sure, but in the end they will.

 

thank you for your encouragement and for sharing your experience. I swear I'll get to 90 and then go for 180.
The only thing that scares me is that I may have a wet dream. Never had one in my entire life. Is something scary? Has anyone experienced that?

 

There are so many things we can do, realise, live that any second wasted masturbating to porn, or even without it's truly absurd if you think about!

 

thank you, it's a good advice

last year I made it to 65, but then I had sex with a girl. I had DE and this was and still is my first reason to do NoFap (even though, I am now persuaded there are many other things to add why it's worth avoiding PMO). Unfortunately, even though I felt amazing like I never did in years, I was unable to ejaculate during sex, just her HJ afterwards. This depressed me so that I kept doing NoFap with less motivation relapsing from time to time. When I broke up with a girl I had just met (my call, but still very disappointing), I relapsed also with porn and binge masturbating. With covid lockdown, I returned to my bad habits. Now, I want to steer clear of that filth once and for all. I know I can make it. However, you're right I should break it down into smaller timeframes. I'm just 32 but ruined my marriage with this DE issue. During my first 3 years with my ex wife I never watched porn, we had standard sex, but I orgasmed just thanks to her hand or mouth. That was awful because I was truly in love with her. I relapsed with porn just in the last months of our marriage when everything was falling apart. That period was horrible, I masturbated almost once a day to porn without her knowing it. Finally, she discovered and just left. There were other issues but that one was crucial, even because she made the connection between my DE, alone masturbation and porn.

Now, more than last year, I am determined to do nofap for ever. It's not just to fix DE. I don't even know if my DE is fixable. Always had it and I had many beautiful and loving girls, so it's just something that depends on myself and my habits. I used to prone masturbation when I was a child and sometimes even as a teen. That has had some effects for sure, because I hard-wired my brain to orgasm this way. Rather than to porn (which still is a horrible thing), I think I'm addicted to orgasm itself.

 

yeah, you told me. Hope your ED wasn't due to the surgery, or it's fixable anyway. You're right: I had death grip. Just hope I haven't done any permanent damage, particularly with prone masturbation during my childhood and adolescence. Actually I squashed and grinded on a chair or hard surface till I orgasmed. Did that for many years, often more than once a day (until I was 23/24). Sure. I'll go for 90 no-PMO.

 

I put on porn site blockers on my phones and laptops, too. Porn is not my main concern. I can give it up relatively easy. Most of the times I masturbated with hard grip but without P. I'm not American and live alone, which make it more difficult but I've plenty of things to do for work and hobbies. At the weekend I'll stay outside as much as possible. Happy Thanksgiving to you!

 

Hi there! Yeah, I've plenty of things to do luckily. Don't worry I'll make it
I don't want to waste even a single minute of my life doing that to myself. It's not healthy, besides I want my DE gone for good. I think it will require much time. Maybe 90, or 180, or 360 days, perhaps my entire life. I know for sure I lost sensitivity due to idiosyncratic masturbation technique when I was a child and then that stupid edging. I didn't orgasm often, it was more...I was used to do that for hours when I had time. But TIME is the most important thing we have, it's worth more than anything else and it doesn't go back. My main goal is no longer to cure DE (which I hope)...it's about not wasting time anymore. I could use it for so many other things. Life is so short. Every second is a gift that must be cherished, not squandered. Now, I got to day 10. These last days I've had headache, anything else other than that .

 

Hi there,
we're in the same boat. In a way, glad to hear there's someone in the same situation. I guess it will take a huge amount of patience but it is very much possible to recover. Think about this. Once, I couldn't even orgasm with a gf's hand or mouth. Then, I managed to do that. I've never orgasmed during sex, but I know I'll be able and so will you. Before a horrible experience with my last gf, I didn't take this issue too seriously. At first, women seemed happy that you can last like forever. After that, I came to realize it would destroy almost any relationship I'll ever have. It's not a choice. I must do NoFap forever. It's both a challenge and a cure.
I don't have any addiction except this one (not even porn, rather masturbation itself). Now, I wanna it over for good.