Wanking confession

Hi all.

My name is O. I've never considered having had a problem with porn or masturbation until recently. Very rarely do I watch pornographic videos, but I masturbate regularly (twice or three times per day) to pictures on tubmlr that satisfy my fantasies and fetishes.

I have recently started a long distance relationship with a Christian girl. I am not particularly Christian, but very open minded and am strongly exploring the faith. I don't have many pictures of my girlfriend and so used tumblr as an outlet instead. I considered this to be okay, until I caught myself wanking over pictures of a girl I had fooled around with in the past!

This is when I realised I was addicted to masturbation.

It might sound crazy but I actually confessed everything to my girlfriend. She was destroyed. Obviously. Immediately questioning whether she was pretty or beautiful and worthy. She is without a doubt the most beautiful person in the world, but now I've hurt her. She appreciated my sincerety however and I am trying to frame my confession as the first confident and necessary act to changing myself. I am hoping my girl will forgive me in time, if I can change my self.

So that's why I'm here. For help. I want to change myself. I'm now 3 days abstinent but I'm finding it difficult already. I am persistently horny and just want to play. My goal is 90 days.

 

Thanks Blade. I'll definitely use that advice