Viewpoint on after effects of fapping

The dreaded relapse

We all have been through them.

Some feel social anxiety
Some shame
Self hate
The list goes on forever

I have been observing and just want to share an opinion. I saw this of myself and only intend it to be seen as that. This isn't advice, just experience.

So I've been through this many times in many different ways.

When I discovered this site I started responding with shame.

It felt shit. I was expecting all sorts of stuff and saw all of it disappear after a relapse.

The previous sentence pretty much sums up 3 years of my life

I started observing not only the act of masturbation, but also what happens afterwards and why I feel bad after the deed is done.

My findings are that masturbation actually grounds you.

It makes you slower, more attentive and present.

None of the above terms are meant to sound positive or negative.

I saw that I didn't think of the future or past right after masturbation.

I only started feeling bad after thinking well there goes my 'streak'.

So this does take you away from your thoughts and places you closer down to earth and in a more lethargic place.

Many hate this lethargic place and to that I ask why?

Why do you hate the lethargy? Is it because you actually want to do something or is it just the fact that you were told it's bad?

Too much of it, fine, I can understand that you like feeling alive and vibrant, but the grounding effect masturbation has does have it's place.

Notice I said the grounding effect, not necessarily masturbation itself. You can easily obtain the grounded state with some meditation or any other grounding exercise.

Thus when I fapped and I go out and don't act all energetic and so forth I sit back into the reality of it and feel contentment.

It is my manhood that slows down and just watches, barely reacting.

Non-reactivity is not the absence of manhood but an essential part in its expression