very bad

Never do it again. With time the pain will fade.

Be very grateful nothing happened, and hope she does not talk about this to anybody else. Leave her alone.

 

Yep, just learn from this and make sure it doesn’t happen again. It is in a way a good thing that you feel bad because it means you are not likely to ever do it again. If you do get any urge like this again, you know what you need to do. Rush into a different room, look away, go find something else to do, and think of something else. In the future that will set a better example for you, and discipline your brain to learn that you just cannot do it, and then in the future you will be a much better person for that.

If you haven’t quit porn then that is also a good idea, do that too, as over time, that would change the way you think and be able to trust yourself again and be able to manage these situations better.

Confessing this kind of thing is difficult so well done for recognising that it was not right, just learn from it in the future and do what you need to do - do this for yourself. From here, set yourself a better example, think about what the consequences are if you continue, don’t go there. Find another path and do things that are the opposite to that.