URGENTLY NEED HELP CREEPY STALKER RUINING MY LIFE

Actually as long as it is amongst adults and on mutual consent things cannot be too bad. So, what could they do? Tell your friends? What? That you are a pervert? Are you? What is a pervert? And then: Who isn't in his fantasies at one point in their life? Google all the celebrities who got got caught with pants down in all sorts of places, harrassing chamber maids, or giving blow jobs in public toilets. Or flash outside. Or drive naked. Or gang banging around in brothels with coke up their nose and a champagne bottle up their ass, wearing lingeries, lipstick on and barking like a dog.
People stick all sorts of things up their ass, down their throat, sniff thongs or socks, pay to be called dirty names, lick shoes, sniff or burn farts and show their dong to grannies.

Yeah, ok. They might tell. Then you would be the talk of the town ... for how long? 3 days, 2 weeks. 3 weeks? And then ... people move on to the next breaking news. Now, what is better: Worst case having to go through 3 such weeks? Or like now months of turmoil, inner agony, depression etc.

Look, once your reputation is ruined you are free to live your life and free of people's opinions.
And believe me ... all your friends, even your parents, even your grandparents ... have or had some thoughts they wouldn't want anyone to know. So, you are not alone. Welcome to the club.
Make peace with your fantasies, enjoy that you can use your imagination, enjoy that you are alive. Ok, your hormones you need to control And your addictions.
"It's no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society", Krishnamurti said. And he is damn right.

What I would suggest is: When they text you under whatever new name ... delete message, don't react. The thing may be that they enjoy to see you panic. And as long as you panic you give them a reason to panic you. Stop it and they will stop. What do they get from telling anyone? A quick kick. And then. It's over. And you are free.
That's called growth. We learn from trial and error and mistakes not from successes. Success is the light on the other side of the tunnel.

Most important part in this is: You need to find peace for yourself with those fantasies you had. Don't condemn them. Don't condemn your Self. Don't bully yourself. You are human, not divine. Change the relationship you have yourself with what you were fantasizing about. And no one will be able to harm you. Not them, not your friends, not your family.
Besides, friends and family who would then start bashing you for it ... Let me ask you? Would that be the kind of people you want to have in your life? Would they be friends? No. Friends and family should be caring and loving or they don't deserve to be with you.

 

You said earlier that you acted out on a porn fetish with someone, is that the same person or is he another one who you never met, well nevermind, the thing is that being careful is good but trapping yourself in home, constantly thinking about it, not living you life is not okay. Maybe you're pretending that the situation is far worse than it really is, I can't say, only you know the depth of the situation. If you've told them where you live then it can be a problem depending on what kind of guy he is, is he a strong muscular guy with a strong personality, does he have alot of friends, or is he one of those scared guys who can't do much other than threatening on social media. If you know him well and you know what kind of guy he is then you probably know the intensity of the situation, but you've got to be strong in either case, you have to fight as other said. BTW what happened with fighting with your thoughts about your acting out on a fetish, has that problem got any better?

 

You felt light as a feather ... that is great. So, it is still in you, the feather, the lightness. Now dark clouds may cover the sun and the feather has become a heavy burden, too heavy on your wings, not able to fly. Dry them off, give yourself a break. Imagine how it was when you felt like a feather. Remember all the times you felt light, and you will start feeling lighter again.
Practice self-loving kindness. It's not all of you that is what you think it is. It's a part, a side of you. Another side, part of you condems. You see, there are different parts, voices inside talking. Let the light feather voice talk to the dark heavy cloud voice and let it give that dark part some gentle words, some understanding. It was a time in your life. It is not all your life.
It may have been bad yet you learned something out of it, I understand that from your messages here. Listen, you are a worthy and foremost strong being cause you keep on going and finding a way out. You will find it. Or rather it will find you. What would you say is one of your most helpful ressources in this time?