Update: 53 days in, stopped wasting time on the web.

It's been 53 days since I started just before the new year, and today, I finally feel like I want to bang a woman...which is oddly huge for me. I started nofap with the goal in mind of having less social anxiety, and being more comfortable around women, as I saw fapping as a means to keeping myself from having interest in the opposite sex.

Well, after a week of nofap, I just lost all interest in women. I felt indifferent. I felt confused as well because I started nofap with the intent that I would be more appealing to women, and they would be more appealing to me. What has happened is I've become more appealing to them, but they've become less appealing to me. I'm more confident, easy going, funnier, smoother, happier, and have gained a more attractive energy.

Throughout this journey I feel like I hit a bunch of lows, and highs. There's nothing like waking up from a sex dream with a raging hard on, and having to calm yourself down. I've felt odd bouts of aggression lately. I'll catch myself having these violent thoughts towards men that I've never had before. Weird.

Finally, something I changed something that has been holding me back for a while. On my days off, and after work, I'd be on the internet from morning until I went to sleep. I worked out, went to school, cooked, hung out with friends, but I felt oddly isolated. I would use youtube, netflix, free movies, or forum all day long to escape reality. Earlier in the week I decided to stop. I would use the internet for school, or if it was necessary, but go cold turkey on any entertainment (that includes tv, laptop, and smart phone). I feel like I'm in the beginning stages of something good. I've been killing some time playing with my cat, but I'm also getting out of the house more. Thursday I went to a dance lesson, and for a drive. Friday I went to a dance lesson, and ran some errands. Saturday after work I got a good buzz, and saw a hockey game with my friends. Today I went cross country skiing, did homework, and am about to pick up some gym equipment.

I'm gonna continue nofap, with no real end in sight. So far I made it to 53, lets see if I can go to 106, etc.