Tough hit today

So, I'm saying this here because I felt like venting and I'm too embarrassed to talk about this with anyone I know.

I first joined this forum about a month ago after ending up in bed with a girl whom I found really attractive and really interesting in terms of relationship potential, and was unable to perform... twice in a row...

This made me realize that I needed to fix things because that was the first time I found myself in this situation. Usually, i had no problem keeping it up and having good sex, even if I was suffering from a loss of sensation, which may or may not be die to porn...

This motivated me in all of my efforts to try and regain full sensation and drop porn completely. After these first few unsuccessful attempts, although her comments had been initially promising in that she didn't really worry about it and understood this was not a usual problem for me.
Anyway, after some dragging for a few weeks due to a trip on her side and a tight schedule, she has now officially rejected me.
I mean, we weren't very involved anyway. So it's not like I am heartbroken or anything. But this one kinda stings anyway I can't help but feel I just missed out on a great woman because of ED, and, I should say, the subsequent impact on my overall confidence that this causes, which I am sure she perceived, and felt like a turn off. And that's hard to accept. I feel like a goddamn failure right now.