This year I'm gonna be successfull (male, 24 yo, student)

I started watching porn when I was about 12 years old I think. Quickly I was addicted and when my parents divorced and I just lived with my dad who was not at home from morning to 7pm, I came back from school, played anno 2070 or simcity or some other game that you can play with only one hand, watched porn for hours meanwhile on my phone and jerked off. That was my routine for some years. Adding the usual porn session in the morning after waking up and once at night (minimum) to fall asleep faster. I knew that I had a problematic consumption when I spent whole days watching, but that it really was an addiction I realized last year after I read Garry Wilson's book.

The symptons I suffer from that:
Brain fog (very serious)
bad memory (terrible)
heavy concentration problems (I can focus well for about 1 minute)
not being sexually attracted by real women (like my beautiful gf who is desperate for sex with me)
erectile dysfuntion (only during sex with a real person)
depression (many times thought about suicide. Also bought the chemicals once to kill myself with Carbon monoxide)
inability to feel pleasure (the world is literrally grey to me)

On top of that I calculated how much lifetime I have lost through my addiction. A moderate assumption would be 3h a day for 11 years, which makes 1.375 years. If I have used that time for other things, I would have my bachelor degree already and speak a third language fluently. I would be able to enjoy my life so much better and be the person I want to be and could have been all through.... if there wasn't porn.
I hope writing my dairy here helps me out of it now.

Today is my day 0, since I fell back this morning.
Before I was clean for 12 days. Anyway. never too late to restart