This is not what I thought

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by stronger626, Aug 28, 2014.

  1. stronger626

    stronger626 Fapstronaut

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    Hey everyone,
    Just joined this site today. After reading around I felt like sharing my.story and expressing myfeelings about all this with you. I hope it may help for those who read it, and I hope it helps me too.
    So for starters, in the last year or two I have been working on self improvement. Just recently celebrated my 30th birthday and in the end of my 20's I wanted to ensure in my 30's I could apply the knowelege I accrued the best way and just set myself for success. During this journey I became more in tune with my inner self and what I call "higher power" , just my personal beliefs so I hope I dont offend anyone. One of my friends made a comment saying, if you masterbate a lot you should try taking a break, it will make you feel better. Now me open minded I actually thought I would try. Now I must add that at that point I didnt masterbate as much as most men seemed too. When I was younger or even just stressed yes I could be heavy at times. But after trying it for a over a week and reading stuff online I not only realized that yes it did make md feel amazing but I also realized how much porn I look at. I was kinda stunned. It became apparent that every time I wanted to masterbate I pulled some porn up. I was also in a sexually healthy reltionship of about three years so again didnt always need to PMO. So I would for my own personal excitment just not do it. It has totally opened my eyes to so many things. It has really changed me. This is not what I thought it was! I just figured it would make me focus more on healthy relations with my gf but it has been so much more beneficial than that. I usually only make it about 10-14 days but was never really setting goals I was just giving it a go, but since I started this pattern instead of my old routine I have become more active and lost 30lbs, I am way healthier(i became motivated to eat healthier as well), my mental health is fantastic, I just feel more in tune with myself. I cant think of everything that has changed but I am now single after we gf and I decided to part ways for other reasons and having not been single in years I am so confidant. Thats not like me, usually I become insecure and depressed and watch lots and lots of porn looking at girls I will never have. I realize how pointless this is. I wanna go out into the real world and up my chances of finding a real life girl that I can hangout with and make my best friend, not a computer screen.
    Ok so with all that being said I wanted to join this nofap family and be able to see what others are doing to impove their lives with this amazing challenge. It makes me happy to see it having a positive effect on others as well and if I can help anyone or give advice it would be awesome, and of course if I can learn more than its just a win win for everyone.
    I am really excited to be here and I am looking forward to the future holds for us. Everyone keep up the awesome work!!

    -Stronger