My name is Andres, and I'm sick of wasting my life before it's even started. I discovered porn when I was like 12 years old (3 years ago), and I quickly realized that I started to get more aroused by men than women. I come from a Catholic background, and I didn't want anybody to know about my sexuality, so I started to 'live it' through porn. The thing is that my uncle found out what I was doing. He promised not to tell anyone as long as I helped my self. That was like 2 years or less ago. I think I tried, I don't know. But I just stopped fighting, I didn't want things to change. I wanted to keep with my good old gay pornography. Everything changed when I started to think about the future. And right now, it scares me. I'm not the person I want to be. I want to be better, I want to be a good person. I want to be happy and successful, and I think porn is taking me away from that. But I started to change things. I used to be bullied in my old school, so I entered to a new one this year, and I finally have friends, and everything seems better. I joined a Christian youth group, and I want to improve spiritually, but if I want that, I've got to reboot (Church says fapping is sinful because it's totally selfish) . I think rebooting porn is the start of bigger changes I thought were impossible, like starting to exercise (believe me, I'm pretty lazy), having a commited relationship (preferably with a girl), being a lot more creative, I don't know, there are so many things… So this is it. I know I'll fail many times before I make it. But at least I'll move forward. May the odds be ever in my favor.
It's great that you've seen the bad in porn at such a young age. Most people go a decade or more before they realise how destructive it can be. Don't worry about failing because it's simply evidence that you tried and you can only succeed by trying. I applaud your journey and will be watching closely.
Hi androidhustler, (what a weird pseudo) You came to the right place ! Hopefully for you you are still young enough to make it easier to quit, so QUIT ! Right now ! My question would be: are you doing this for yourself ? You seem to do it for your family of for God but you need to do this for your own sake if you want it to succeed ! You must also think about what you want to achieve, what your goals are. You haven't posted on this thread for quite some time, shall we assume you are not ready to fight ? Please, let us hear from you. If you want support, come and talk, you can even send me private messages and I promise I will do my best ! I'm also glad you want to uplift your spirit and increase your theological knowledge. Here's a challenge for you, try to find me a verse or several in the Bible that would support that we can pray to Mary and that she's Holy. See you !
