The time for change has come

Hi everyone!

I had know of Porn since before I was 10 years old! At the age of 11-12 it became a rock solid routine which to this day consisted of me doing PMO about once-per-day. Since last year I have noticed that my taste for Porn had gotten bizarre and I couldn't masturbate to regular porn anymore. This had scared me and I started trying to avoid porn best I can. I started masturbating once every two days. My tastes had not changed, I felt like my addiction was getting worse.
In october of 2017 I discovered noFap. All the health benefits of noFap and the bad health complications of PMO motivated me to push myself to completely stop Masturbation. I think nothing has changed. I had periods of 5, 6, 7, 8 and 9 or less days of no PMO. The thing is my behaviour is not changing, my tastes are still the same and I constantly feel worse and worse about the whole situation. My addiction is with me most of my life (I'm 17), because of that I sometimes feel like It so deeply a part of me that I can't take the Demon out of me. I want to stop! And the more I feel defeated from relapsing the more I'm motivated to quit! So that is why I created this account.
For the past few months this community is my only source of no PMO knowledge. The feelings of support,care and understanding I feel towards you my friends made me want to make an account. I just can't do it alone. I hope that with this account I could be an active member, have a journal and be as active on the forums as I can, because if I don't I think I will relapse forever.

 

Hey thanks @StopTheMusic for the ESH! I totaly agree with your point that reading other peoples journals will help strengthen our willpower.
Now I'll probably go to bed but I will check out the thread you recommended tomorrow.

I recommend you check out this thread:
https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/6-years-clean.135983/

Most of the things I know about NoFap come from this thread. The perspective is a bit different (there are a lot of references from tradicional chinese medicine) but it will definitely give you a better understanding of the addiction.