THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Day 34

Yes, indeed

 

Day 89 brothers

 

Day 3 going well.
I'll go out later today for a friends birthday.
I will not drink alcohol as I want to give my body a chance to recover from all the tiredness.

 

Day 90 brothers

 

Checking in!

 

Day 35

Congrats, dude!

 

Day 0, let’s do this!

 

Day 156! I have an exam tomorrow. Good Luck!

Congratulations!

Good Luck! you got this

 

Day 36

 

Day 91 brothers

@MJ Warrior 93 @Baki Hanma thanks bros. The journey never ends. I fell like I personally need at least 1 year of pure retention to heal, but it may vary from person to person. Keep going brothers

 

Day 5 going well.
@KaiokenX20 I agree with you about the long time required to heal. It seems to be the only way.
We keep going

 

Day 91 brothers

 

Day 0. A man provided with paper, pencil, and rubber, and subject to strict discipline, is in effect a universal machine. - Alan Turing

 

Day 6 going well.
I am alone in the house for a week as my flatmate has gone back to his home town for a bit.
I was thinking of using Tinder to get some girl come over. I installed it for a bit then deleted it.
I know from experience that it is a P sub that is harmful.
And even in the cases where I am successful and get sex, it still feels hollow and unsatisfying.
It makes me fell cheap and weak.
Like @Lexro84 said in one of his posts, I want a woman to want me for me and to have an emotional connection to her.
I keep fighting.

 

Checking in!

 

Day 37

 

Failed again. But I will try again.
Need to enforce some discipline;
Stop reacting to triggers and sliding down that slippery slope.

Day 0. I can do this!

 

Day 92 brothers

 

Starting again.
What happened:
I was using LinkedIn and saw some photo of a beautiful recruiter.
She reminded me of a girl I had sex with in the past and I looked at a photo of her.
I got urges and MO'ed. After that I started giving into the lies of the addiction and opened Tinder, "just to check".

I think this is hypofrontality in practice. Taking a decision that you have established is bad for you because you can't think clearly in the moment.
After looking at some photos I saw a triggering one and the PMO'ed.
I felt terrible today. Tired, sad, remorseful. I felt hope diminishing.
Yet I keep going. I can't afford to give up the vision and effort of a healthy self.

Things to improve:
Deleted the photo of the girl.
Do not look into sexy profiles in any social media if you don't have to.
Block tinder. I thought I had but it seems I was mistaken. Will do it.
Do not give up. Push to improve, it does not happen automatically.

 

Checking in!