DAY 45!!! 45 days without porn, social media, and video games. I finally gained momentum so I'm not slacking off anymore. Stay strong guys, don't give in to the urges. We're all going to make it "Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak." - Matthew 26:41
Day 46, sore back muscles due to today's workout session, time to eat my Mom's food, and grow stronger Can't wait for Monday
UPDATE: Alas, I have officially entered a flatline. Everything is starting to seem "plain", my screen time is increasing because apparently, my brain is looking for that spark to make things "fun" again. I feel like I'm sort of forgetting all the new lessons that I've learned this year, but I'm not, it's still there.... but I just don't feel like it anymore, I don't know why this is happening. I mean, I've changed, I've stopped looking at girls in school as sex objects and I enjoy studying now. And yet, I feel like I haven't changed at all, but I did? I know I did. I don't know, I'm afraid that I might relapse in the upcoming weeks, but we'll see. It's all coming back now, the bad memories, the sleepless night, the anxiety, the shame, that feeling of hopelessness in life, it's all returning very rapidly. I used to think that everything in life was worthless, and the only thing that did matter was pleasure, I got rid of that mindset, but I'm afraid it is coming back. All my bad habits and demons of the past are trying to creep back in. I am slowly becoming weary, all of this is tiring. Training, studying, praying, scripture reading, fighting these inner demons, but I really can't quit or turn back because there is nothing left for me to turn back. I have to keep moving forward! "Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’" - Isaiah 41:10 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Philippians 4:13 God bless you all, stay strong, we're all going to make it
DAY 47 KEEP MOVING FORWARD BRO WHAT'S GOOD "Beloved, I beg you as sojourners and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts which war against the soul," - 1 Peter 2 : 11 Stay strong guys, everything happens for you and not to you, we're all going to make it
