The Reason Why I Pmo & Sexual addiction.

Doing pmo and other addictions for over 2 decades my appearance has gone from like a 9/10 hot male to -10/10 awkward freak.

I wore a face mask yesterday (perfect excuse to hide my face amid Covid-19) and even thou it only artificially boost my confidence I did not feel like sexually fantasizing about raping girls that I see in public. This is how I came to realize that a big part of my addiction comes from a lack of self-image/& self-esteem.

Now I don't know if this applies to everyone or just me but I know if I can be young and hot again I would not feel the need to pmo. I feel like the whole reason I pmo is myself trying to fill this empty void. Therefore, my erroneous mindset thinks I am gonna get some of that by fantasizing about raping women. (If I can't have it, then I must own it!) Psychology is always so complex though that I may not even be close to realizing the whole truth but I think this is as close as it gets.

Today, I decided I will quit pmo and all my other addictions in realization of this. This includes smoking & internet gaming. Just hoping my appearance is not completely irreversible. (The biggest challenge is still gonna be patience and urges.)