Sorry to hear that. Remember that you need to have a healthy outlet for this stress. But obviously, you've got this, you can't go 218 days in a row without some stress. Good luck!
I was having bad time after my relapse to porn [5 mins destroyed my 25 days of progress ]. But I didn't fap, proud of myself. I am now going to take my life in control and achieve my dream college and my dreams. Love you all and good luck.
Day 19, I think! The past few days I've started uninstalling capture apps and it is interesting to see how phone time has increased in this last year, and I've treated it like it's normal. Anyway, had an urge today and almost entered the naughty websites but I saw no reason why would would someone feed this to the mind.
it´s easy to know. if you didn´t drink, what feelings would surface? it seems you´re drinking to numb yourself bro, that´s not good, and you can give birth to a new addiction. accept the pain bro, don´t run away from it, pain is teaching you something. listen. “Always say “yes” to the present moment. What could be more futile, more insane, than to create inner resistance to what already is? what could be more insane than to oppose life itself, which is now and always now? Surrender to what is. Say “yes” to life — and see how life suddenly starts working for you rather than against you.” Eckhart Tolle
Oh I read that too holy crap I gotta shape up living like a manchild not to get all down on myself it is just the sad reality
Checking in brave Warriors!!!! Feeling good and determinated. yesterday, caught myself fishing in searching for classic horror and sci-fi movies, going to sites that contained triggers. but i didn´t engage in any possible trigger, and i do found some. the reason for fishing was: numbness caused by overeating at lunch and no planning in the afternoon. i must be careful around these situations. and today i reafirm my good habits once again. unfortunatelly, the fishing attitude entered my head and heavy urges attacked me yesterday at night, real heavy urges!! which made me get out of bed like 4-5 times. eventually i fall asleep at 1-2 am. anyways, i stand my ground, no peeking! I´m a Warrior today, and boy, what a fire trial i went through . Checking out brave rebooters!! Stay focus, stay on the path!!!!!!!!! "You are soldiers of Gondor! No matter what comes through that gate you will stand your ground!"
A very thoughtful post, ListenPaul! Well I think you forgot that recovery means living life as one should (plus the recovery work). Everything is better than pmo'ing the whole day away, so I don't regret those days where instead I did recovery work LITERALLY the whole day. I think I made a invisible transformation in my early reboot days (years ago) - I read the first time about porn addiction, admitted, found the community, learned to talk about the addiction and my damaged life. I was not alone! And for everything that has happened there was a reason, for every symptom there was a name. I think a megaton was relieved from my shoulders. Thus my first streak was the second longest until now. But I agree with you, when we don't focus enough on recovery, when we stop going to our "meetings" we are probably just on the direct route to relapse. In life everything can trigger us to use: too much joy (dopamin?), too much distraction, too much stress, anxiety, failure, boredom. It's also dangerous to do things just as you used to, even "neutral" things. Yes, even your stinky old wallpaper can be a trigger. I think the reason that there aren't recovery centers for porn addicts all over the place yet is that we don't rob, don't die in the streets, don't cost society a lot of money (not directly at least) and so on. We just create profits for the porn industry and most of the time we sit in our homes and keep absolutely quiet about our condition. It's a little stupid to do recovery on your own, if you are a severe addict but at least there's this community and .. it is how it is. I think I've learned to live with this addiction and at the same time with recovery. It's not optimal and my goal is to quit porn once and for all. But I won't take the next three months off for a reboot. Yeah, it would make sense if I was in a recovery center. But at home? I wouldn't know what to do, how to pass my time aside from not looking at porn. So what I'm doing is just living my life. As good as I can.
Are you serious about weight lifting and gaining muscle? That should give you the perfect reason to stop drinking or reduce
...on the other hand if you have broken legs you gonna need crutches but if you got your legs working again it would be silly to use them. Try to think of length of this challenge as of healing time(500 days only) I'm sure if we won't interrupt the healing process we can walk well on our own .