Day 80 A big urge appears at night i don't have that since i started, i used the fantasies what is left in my memories to calm me down, it works , i know i shouldn't used. Anyways the fantasies doesn't leads me to relapse anymore, just for that , i tooked the risk this time. Edit: It is trick of my mind, the fantasies cannot be controlled or is dangerous. As Aragorn say once
Checking in on day 17. It has been a smooth journey so far but right now the urges are strong... Gotta stay strong to get to Bree.
Checking in. This morning I: Studied Chinese Did yoga and calisthenics Wim Hoff’d Meditated Cold Showered Now I feel like a million bucks; time to go get some work done! Be well everyone!
yeah bro, you´re playing with fire right there. it´s better to find different strategies to calm down. fighting fire with fire can lead to a disaster. try meditating, a walk outside, talk with somebody, etc... that might help you in a better way
thank you brother. great progress you´re doing, i´m proud of you . I was wanting to ask you, that plant in your avatar, is from "little shop of horrors", right?
Checking in Fellowship . An Elf i am!!! Still feeling like shit, i´m really paying the price of my last days of indulgence with alcohol and sweets. my legs are killing me, i was so tired today, that i had to lay down after lunch and tried to take a nap. which i couldn´t but at least staying in the dark help me to rest. unfortunatelly my mind started pumping porn as the ultimate solution for my misery, and in some moments i got lost in fantasies. finally i prayed a bit and get out of the bed. now i´m still feeling tired and foggy but at least better than before The following brothers are making Tolkien proud. Congratulations!!! @Onan the Barbarian - Uruk-Hai @Prophet Moonstruck - Hobbit / Hobbiton (your journey has started brother. Congratulations brave Halfling!!! ) @12ove - Ford of Bruinen / Eriador @Ciceron - Pass of Caradhras / Misty Mountains A wave of support to our brothers @Gallade_Templar and @bob200 which are struggling now. Courage my brothers, it´s hard but it´s worth it. We´re with you!!! I want to make a solene bow to all the members that are dedicated to the Fellowship. Many members ask questions about the reboot and when i read them, i instantly think "someone has probably answer this", and the answer follows . So i want to thank you all for being commited to the Fellowship and the PMO addiction reboot, and for sharing your knowledge and experience with everybody else. You are Warriors!! Checking out my brothers and sisters. Have a great day!! Awareness moment.
Day 7! I need a new short-term goal now! This is my first PMO-sober week in a long time and I am very pleased!
Day 12, Did fish yesterday, Ive been a bit poopy-headed recently. Bum back and finals...excuses lol. Pulling myself up and wearing a smile. Spent some time in the garden which is always a wonderful use of my time. Best to you all Fellowship!
Had a weird day. Apparently it takes a lot of mental energy to go sorting through your stuff and after I did through my garage my mind nearly gone blank. Very similar to the state after you finished 12 hour busy shift. Run 4 miles, done 30 minutes of meditation and had a cold shower!
Day 6 - Urak-Hai @RiseToGreatness I got to bed at 3am last night (not on the computer or anything, that stuff was put away around midnight). However, I was playing Yugioh on my bed (just pitting two of my better decks against each other). Lost track of time, but was not sure if I wanted to play in a remote tournament tonight, so I decided to prepare just in case. I have to decide in the next two hours though. I graduate on Saturday, then I am finally done with undergraduate. Best, Mathman1994
Check in for Thursday I feel my brain fog starting to lift just a little. Amazing how simple tasks seem difficult and painful when you're dopamine addicted and porn addled. Today I've prayed, meditated, done some writing and reading, eaten healthy. Soon I will lift weights. I've been having trouble falling asleep lately and have had to take melatonin two nights in a row. Tonight I'm going to try not looking at any screens from the time I get home until bed (about one hour).
Day 0, When bored I am in danger. I am having my friend set the password on my P blocker. Best to all Fellowship
Back to Day 0. I masturbated unfortunately, and it started with some peeking, so I am counting it as a relapse and not just a reset
