day 0 of 5 - I have very little discipline in the last few days. I have had wet dreams and had frequent relapses. Today I found a way to block porn on my Fire TV stick. This was the last window to the porn. Unfortunately, I used it way too often. I hope to use the days off to work on myself.
Day 18. Didn't sleep well last night. Feeling pretty anxious today. I am trying to decide what to do with my life next year. I have been juggling the idea of going back to school or moving to a bigger city with more dating opportunities. Sometimes I feel like my head is swimming with different potentialities. I know that I am looking for a big change just not sure what path to take.
The only way to do it is to control the focus of your attention,by removing focus of your attention-awareness from the dirty thought the very moment it appears in your consciousness.Without this water they die and fade away into nothingness from which they came.
This shrink of yours has the wrong views (they are like a disease) and apparently he/she keeps spreading them which is very sad.
Checking in ! 'Tips' followed /~not : 1)Meditate-done 2)Stay accountable daily-done 3)Study about reboot-done 4)Take cold showers-not done 5)Follow a trigger prevention plan-done 6)Get occupied.Work on your hobbies and dreams -done 7)Practice physical exercise-done 8)Eat healthy-done 9)Sleep well-done
Slider8 These daily check-ins are motivating and not unnoticed! These past few days have given me reminders that a little bit of foresight and planning can be super helpful to maintain good habits during exceptional days. I was more lucky than I was prepared. Visiting my parents', I was suddenly confronted by memories of a bad relapse I'd had. Spending Christmas day in my PJs (a family tradition) put distance between me and the pocket notebook I've been keeping to help guide myself through the day. My diet and sleep were thrown way off too. I should have - made sure I had pockets, brought my water bottle with me like I normally do, and brought some healthy snacks from home. So simple but would've made big differences. Today and tomorrow I'll be intentionally reviving good practices and resting.
I see what you mean by It sounds like you've meant letting them go by ignoring them and not giving them your conscious attention !..and the other factor to long streak might have been the release of tension created , by the marrriage/partner way which would divert it from PM ...that would explain 2 years success, cos I had experience of not having PM for long stretches of time when I was living with a partner.
These 'Tips' are ways to deal with emotional/psychological stress in your life which is the main reason behind the relapses and the list is not exhaustive. For example i would recommend to: -stop using alcohol (NA for short (because it greatly weakens your self-control and determination to stay clean)) as well as -Avoid evil feelings and thoughts(AEFF for short),here i mean-anger,envy,hatred,greed,pride,laziness (because they destroy you too,physically ,mentally and spiritually).
One more day Fellowship. Let´s welcome our new member: @mrguy The following brothers have upgraded and reach places in Middle Earth. Congratulations!!! @kingsmokepoof - Bree / Eriador @MyGodandMyAll27 - Gates of Argonath / Anduin River @OttarrTheVendelCrow - Buckleberry Ferry / Shire Good day yesterday but with a bad ending. i got carried away by the partying and christmas spirit that i start searching for adventure movies. then i go on by searching adventure movies with hot actresses (fishing) and one thing lead to another and i watched nudes. by the grace of God my wife start complaining why i wasn´t in bed, and that snap me out of the trance and i shut down the pc. if it wasn´t for her, i might have collapse yesterday. totally out of the blue. deep down i knew i was fishing but i got carried away and was reckeless. i should have known, any search for lust, no matter what it is, is the addiction in disguise. so i review my notes (daily reminder) on fishing. it´s really dangerous. my sleep was terrible, slept like 3 hours or less. and today i was bombarded by the most unberable urges that i ever experience. i needed to take a cold shower, stay outside and do workouts several times. i feel a bit better now but my vigilance is on high stakes. pray for me Fellowship.