Day 75 Shadowfax, the chieftain of the race of the Mearas, the greatest horses of Middle Earth, comes to your aid. Shadowfax is capable of comprehending human speech and runs faster than the wind.
Day 4 First Sunday off in a while. No temptation today, although I’ve been battling some brain fog all day as I’ve been tapering off my medication. Big meeting with my new bosses tomorrow. Off to bed to be prepared!
10 days – You spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area. Double digits! I am grateful that I've come so far
Day 5 A great day. Good meetings, went for a swim, and a relaxing evening. Did face some difficulty after seeing an adult scene in a movie, but I skipped past it and nothing came from it.
Relapsed on day 23. I'm so sorry dear me. Let's try again and this time, no one can stop me from reaching those 180 days! Feeling very sad but don't know what to do.
Day 1 again. Last night I binged like 4 hours or so. Only 2 and a half hours sleep left me. Lately I couldn't bring myself to even write a little post here. But I can't go on like this. I'm only spiralling down: media overuse, depressive moods, then pmo again ... I feel like I have not much left apart from porn, but it's destroying me. I must quit, I must adopt the mindset, fight on every level ... My plan: writing diary, writing here, reporting just what I did (even it it wasn't much) and look after myself. Stopping online entertainment (which I'm addicted to) Helpful: classical music (it's better to focus on that one genre, just because with this focus I will not digress and loose myself as much), exercise in every way or form, nature and going outside, contacting other people and doing create stuff that makes me a little happier (for example using scented oil, doing wellness). I want to do as much as I can to support myself and improve my mood, but I'm also willing to embrace the pain and go through the darkness. I don't know I need on this path, but these boots are made for walkin', so .... HERE I AM SAURON!
35 days: Moria, the greatest Dwarven Kingdom, is before you. With a beard and a axe, you´re a Dwarf now.
