Day 11. I am not sure how to summarize today. Did the 5 needed hours, then bunch of chores, then calisthenics (compensated for Wednesday). Quite productive, but I feel that it's not enough. For me it's never enough. I like the winter, but I clearly miss sunshines, warm weather. What can I do... At least I can watch videos and dream about places, where it's sunny and warm now. We are the same species, but cultural differences is something... Although it seems we all like musics and dancing, and nice automobile machine cars. Spoiler: Journey stuff Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 11. No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.). Calisthenics workout every Wednesday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day. 9 done.
Day 23 Really feeling that it’s Monday. Went to the gym the first time in a couple of weeks which was good, but progressively felt more tired throughout the day. Got to have dinner with a couple of friends which was a welcome break, I’m really beginning to value spending time with the people that don’t drain my social battery. Urges weren’t a problem, but I did have an unfortunate dream the night before which played in my mind. Feeling a little angsty, but it’s primarily fatigue.
4 days – A brave friend, Tom Bombadil, takes notice of your quest. He teaches you a rhyme to summon him if you fall into danger within his borders. Quest Aid – Song of Bombadil
35 days Moria, the greatest Dwarven Kingdom, is before you. With a beard and a axe, you´re a Dwarf now. @Robah2111 Welcome to the fellowship
1 day - At Buckland, Bilbo gives you Sting - an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when porn forces are around. Quest Item - Sting ⚡️
@Vicegerent it always feels bad, but as you mentioned, you probably have learned a great deal about yourself and why you failed. Use that knowledge so you dont fail next time! Also, you mentioned a daily practise that reinforces the recovery mindset; Mark Queppet has something exactly like this. I do it, and it is incredible. I hope it may help you as well.
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 6 Day Free of PMO All in all a bit of a challenging day, I got a nice workout in, meditation went well and work was rather stressful but productive. There is some temptation in the back of my mind, likely surfaced to the stress of the day. Stay Strong! @PeaceOnEarth108 Congrats on ranking to Dwarf!
Day 12. Dreamt that I had an emission. Then I woke up and started checking my sheets like a crazy person. I thought I had a wet dream. But it appears no. Just a dream. I felt a relief. Maybe it's good - dream reminded that I really don't want to relapse, that failure is painful. Later craziness continued and I dreamt dragon and trying to not be killed by it or something. I don't usually dream nightmares or maybe I just don't remember. So it was weird... Psychologist day. It was tough again. Quite sad realisations, but also there is hope. In some sense I am trying to enter places of my brain, where I usually don't go. Spoiler: Journey stuff Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 12. No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.). Calisthenics workout every Wednesday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day. 9 done.
Day 24 Complicated day at work. Someone was let go and the mood in the office was very low; I don’t particularly have anything to complain about today, but when everyone around me is bummed out it hits me pretty hard. These low feelings eventually manifested into urges in the afternoon, probably because that’s what I would resort to when I wanted a dopamine boost, but saner minds prevailed.
Day 1 Struggled a little bit with intrusive thoughts telling me to PMO, but I managed to stay focused on my goals!
36 days @Redemptionisrequired thanks, I'm very grateful that I've come so far. Congratulations on reaching a week, seems like you're up again
Day 2. Just a normal day. So normal that even if anyone were to give me millions I wound not go back to P. I wonder how that spirit and state of mind could be lost in a matter of minutes. What takes over us when we mess up? @theonlyway Thank you for the tip.
3 days I relapsed the last saturday, I was sad and I stayed up at nigth. That was a relly bad combination to relapse. Today I worked out and took a cold shower Keep strong my brothers.
