Oh yeah, i couldn't agree more, this hit close to home. You see yourself in the mirror after a session of PMO, looking at your own lifeless eyes, seeing your life going downhill faster and faster, thinking about the kind of degeneracies that you're turning into... that is the first step to acknowledge your addiction and get rid of it.
Boy was I ever right about day 6 being my hardest! I woke up today SWAMPED in cravings and thoughts. Thankfully I self talked myself out of bed and I haven't had any since then. Best to remain vigilant and focus on my habits for today most definitely. Tomorrow will mark day 7, and it's my hope that I can fulfill my goal of making it seven days! Stay strong fellowship
Checking in Fellowship! Talk about a false start , the next day i post, pum, another binge relapse . But i learn tremendously yesterday and today, so i´m feeling a lot better and hopeful for the future. Good day today, just tired (as expected) but still i was productive and in a good mood Have a great day mighty Companion!! Love you all Now... let´s really do this!!
Day 91, trod on! 91 days – After carefully studying the Gate you decide is too dangerous to charge it full front. The fallen brother Gollum reveals there´s a secret entrance to Mordor. With a sigh of relief you turn south. Your path now follows the borders of Ephel Dúath, the Mountains of Shadow.
Day 36 Spent the day with my family, ate far too much so I’m very excited to get back to the gym on Monday! As I was with people all day urges didn’t surface at all, did feel a sense of longing for a relationship seeing a few happy couples today, but these things come with time. I felt exceptionally down in the late afternoon, possibly could have been lethargy from all my Mum’s cooking, but I guess I just feel a little stuck in life. This is odd because I’m in training for a career I’ve always wanted, but I suppose it’s just a bump in the road that God is using to teach me something - I just need to find what it is! Stay strong brothers and sisters.
Over my recovery journey I've had that scene modified in my mind with Gandalf saying "This to shall pass!" All our slips and falls will pass.
Day 19: PMO forces have spotted us!! With haste, We use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine River. Finally, this week has over. I don't know if it is the constant effort to keep out bad thoughts that I am very tired, and I am procrastinating a lot. Yesterday I had some urges less than today, but it is like I am beginning to hate PMO, so if I feel tempted I reject it. I don't know if it had happened to you before, but I feel like I want to pee, and after doing I still feel like I want to pee. And I have this the whole day (was yesterday today it didn't happen). Today I am just recovering energies, I slept until 15:00 and I only watched TV. But I watched Lord of the Rings (The two towers). It is incredible to see Frodo temptations how are like PMO ones. Have a great night.
Man uninstall Instagram at all. There is too much hot content and it is difficult to avoid. But to answer your question, avoid any content that produces you an urge and finish in MO. Even though I uninstalled Instagram I had to say to youtube I am not interested in any content that produces me any urge.
Day 184, end. I think maybe I discovered something.. a few days ago I started to hot shower through the day or at night, along with all mornings cold shower. And I think this may taken an important role on my recent urges, I think the confort of the hot showers actually made my will weaker, it's like telling your brain and body "you can go soft now" I will quit hot showers again for now. And see if my will gets it's strength back.
Day 15, first day of the journey as hobbit completed safely. So excited, feeling great today, haven't felt this good in weeks.
Day 14 Hobbiton is in view and tomorrow I become a Hobbit again! I have been getting a lot of urges today, but have managed to hang in. This is an area of the streak I frequently fall in. I am staying on my toes, ready to fight off the pmo forces. The ring calls to me and places memories of porn in my head, but I resist. Got home pretty late, but I’m glad I got the important things checked off the schedule. Also a congrats is owed to @12ove for reaching 90 days again and become a Grey Wizard once more. Trod on!