The problem with me relapsing is that I still have doubts (despite all the years of trying to persuade myself that this is the wrong habit) deep inside that my life will be less enjoyable. I don't want to turn into a monk. I just want to have control over it. I don't want to turn my gaze away from beautiful girls for fear of losing control. I want to develop the resolve strong enough to be able to beat it. That's why I'm not gonna install any blocking software. In the past I heard that anybody trying to reboot needs to clear his environment of any triggers. I don't agree with that. If you clear your environment and install blocking software, then what's the point of nofap? Any trigger may happen everywhere: at work, on television, adverts etc. Today I'm almost sure I won't relapse. The problem is when I succeed and become complacent then the urges seem stronger and no logical arguments seem to work. It's either an hour of struggle and relapse or immediate relapse.
good that you share that with us my brother . That is a terrible idea. Let me explain: - you´re aproaching the addiction like something you can control, using intervals as aid. You can´t bro. if you could control the addiction you won´t be an addict in the first place. - Even if you could withstand the first intervals, you would be so obcessed with "fap in the horizon", that your main goal of life was reaching the day of the session. So instead of improving your life for freedom, you would be improving your life for fapping. I used to think just like that in my "dark days". So i´ll spare you the trouble and give right away the information that you need. no bro, you got to quit all the way, cold turkey.
I will keep this in mind - but will replace "no lust" with "I wanna feel good without addiction" - but technical its the same^^
Checking in Fellowship!!! Feeling super today. sleep well, eat minimum sugar yesterday so everything is going smoothly. On these last days my mood and motivation has improved a lot, so this is looking good . This day i was alone at work again, but feeling solid, no temptations. Lot´s of relapses today among the Fellowship. For those how are struggling with pmo sympthoms and withdrawals, here´s something to shed a light Have a great day my friends!!! Love you all
Or even better could be a mantra like: "I wanna feel good without this addiction - not a momentary pleasure but in the long run." "I can live a beautiful life without it - I wanna break free" "Its time to change and this intensely bad habit is holding me back"
Funny that you should share this brother, it's actually been the background of my laptop for the last 4+ years haha.
Checking in Fellowship Friends, Day 351 free of MO and day 423 free of porn. Weird week overall, I had started taking a small dose of magnesium glycinate which is meant to alleviate stress/anxiety and give you a boost of energy. I also realized that I do get a good amount of magnesium from my diet as is. So within 4-5 days, taking 100mg I started feeling spaced out and would get dizzy when I would lay my head down on the ground. It worked wonders for stress, but it made me dumb and dizzy. I would not recommend it. Still clearing it out of the system, been about 3 days since then. I had gotten results from a blood test that made me impulsive. My b12 levels were quite low, so I began to address them. Adding magnesium was my mistake of the week. I had a few strong urges as well, but navigated through them. I will have more to share soon my friends. Stay strong! 350 days – You cross the Plateau of Gorgoroth, the central region of Mordor. A arid plain with extreme climates covered in the volcanic ash of Mount Doom, uninhabitable by anything that lives.
Hey checking in for Day 8. I am no longer an orc today. I am tired time to go unter my blanket. Greetings J
We sculpt and mold our life based on our daily decisions my friend, it is a difficult and painful process at times. The picture depicts this. As to who started the sculpture, I am unsure. I like to think of it as reflection of those who strive to make their path. Thank you for your kind words brother! I don't plan on slipping up now. You as well, let's keep this nice pace!
Checking in all good. Getting offline because of tiredness. Internet + tired brain = relapse. Stay strong, ring-bearers!
