The lonely are the ones always looking.

By design loneliness puts you in a state of wandering. You are looking for something to fill that place inside of you. The more lonely we are the more we can blur the lines. The way it is now I don’t know what’s going on in the world. I avoid a lot of the internet because of porn. I don’t really have many people in life as many others say as well.

To me that’s bothersome but I don’t even really know why. If that’s how it is for most people, why can’t I get over it? I truly feel disconnected as I’m sure many of you do too.

I wake up this morning and porn is nothing, makes me angry to think about. I don’t even try to search it because I know what’s gonna happen. I now wonder if it even matters, if maybe porn is all we get to indulge ourselves. If women don’t want us, or at least not as much as we want them. We make ourselves go back to that place, looking around but feeling invisible.

A machine would be a poor substitute, shit I’ve tried a lot of things to replace affection. Can’t be done, you just feel pathetic, eventually you feel like a robot yourself. I’m sure soon the concept of love will completely go away. We will still seek to preserve to but seen as just stuck in the past.