day 9, padawan i renewed my commitment to nofap yesterday, i want to reach 100 days to see if i can sharpen my focus. masturbation leads to porn as far as i'm concerned, and porn to the dark side of the Force. i want to become a reliable jedi ! so no to the road to the dark side. woke up at 8:50 AM, after going to bed at 9:50 PM, turbulent sleep, but nothing compromising happened so i am at day 9 today ! i went for a run, without taking any breakfast. i ran for 12 minutes... i have felt weird for most of my day so far, probably because i have not eaten much. i have eaten two or three mashed eggs (or whatever they are called in english), i need to eat more for lunch, and i plan a work out so yes i definitely need to eat something. i am feeling no particular urge today, i hope it is not my "not eating" that is causing it, WATCH OUT ! the Force is with me. good day everyone !
Day 36 Jedi Knight - I have a lot of urges today. Got a big chess tourney next week , so I need to keep fighting.
Relapsed day 1 Now I will post on day 7(12sep) I think counting my days makes me relapse easier so.. Its hard for me to go on no pmo streak so I have decided to masturbate every 7 days for myself without daydreaming or porn and then I will gradually decrease the masturbation also.
day... 10 ?! apparently so : i woke up i don't remember when, maybe at 8:50 AM i ate yogurt with sugar and canned fish for breakfast (sounds disgusting looking back now)... had a 50 minutes workout (to compensate for yesterday), for 18 minutes i ran to shake off bad luck and bitterness, the rest was : 6x7 pushups 6x10 abs 3x10 each arm lifting 8.75kg i felt really fine throughout my workout even though i felt like i was going to puke when i ran due to my breakfast... i weigh 59.4kg i don't why i am so light (last week i reached 60,9kg)... maybe my real mass is growing slower... my mindset should stay the same anyway, if there is a way to gain muscle i will learn it and hopefully as soon as i can. however for the time being it is my only way to want to wake up and be alive (not only but it is a prevailing booster) so honestly i can't have better right now at the moment. i keep having dreams in the night so that's okay for me... that's it for today ! may the Force be with you !