The fight is never over! - the dark ways relapse can attack you

Ever since i feel i've conquered my lust for Porn and Masturbation i've stopped coming to the forum. I was living a dream...i met and hangout with a girl for a month but it felt like years because it was so frigging intense...we talked about babies, she slept at my place, i met her friends and she met some of mine, we even travelled all this in a month spam that felt like Disney movies do happen to common people...BUT, things have gone south and even when is not yet over i can tell there's little chance of getting back on the horse as she realized we were going really fast and now wants some distance to take things slow (just that she took a lot of distance...i've seen her 1 hour in about 2 and half week).

The thing i really wanna talk about is ever since this became my personal nightmare i've thought a lot about relapsing and i've dreamed about fapping and watching porn around 3-4 times in the last 2 days. I thought that habit was well behind me but in this time of need is lurking trying to get back into my life...im sharing this with you because i thought this was all over but is not...so stay sharp and stay strong my friends...and just like im trying don't let depression or sadness put you back in that path, come to the forums and release your pressure in a post, always remember from where you came.

Be strong brothers