The feeling you get when you successfully resist

I'm sure a majority of us rebooters have gone thru this at one point or another. Here's something that happened to me today:

I work in a call center with a lot of women. Some of them like to wear very provocative office attire. Now normally this wouldn't be a problem at all, but since I'm in the middle of a reboot it proves to be a great challenge to me and my progress. Today one of my coworkers walked by my desk wearing a tight skirt and some very sexy heels. The office printer is located right behind my desk and sure enough, she needed to make some copies.

Now if you've read any of my previous posts, then you'd know that I have a foot fetish. This particular woman likes to dip her feet in and out of her shoes while she's standing there which literally drives me CRAZY! In this particular instance I stuck to my guns and I resisted the urge to look because the image would surely replay in my mind over and over until I had the opportunity to go home and MO.

A strange feeling came over me while she was there. It was if my brain was screaming at me saying "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? TURN YOUR HEAD AND LOOK AT HER! YOU'RE MISSING EVERYTHING!!!" It wasn't painful. It almost felt like some sort of shockwave surged throughout my whole entire body and it grew more and more intense the longer she stood there. Once she left it slowly faded away. I had successfully avoided danger and lived to fight another day.

When it was over I realized that I really did have a choice. What I was feeling was well... Just a feeling.Something that's there for awhile and then gone just like the pretty woman in heels. I could've taken the shot of dopamine and been miserable for the rest of the day, but instead I decided to finally take the high road and not give in. We're faced with situations like this constantly. Whether it's the urge to look at porn or the big butt and a smile you see at the grocery store that makes you fantasize to the point of personal failure. I tell you it felt absolutely amazing to get through that. That just goes to show you that a few minutes of discomfort can really keep you from hours of damage to your brain and overall wellbeing.