The dire consequences of a relapse

64 days of inner peace and joy since I quit P.M.O. The things that gave me anxiety and made me feel insecure only last for a few seconds, but the thought does not linger in my mind.

Though I am no longer tempted to porn, I felt like an M.O. session out of curiosity and said to myself, I would just start all over again and beat my previous record.

But I stopped myself, because I then realized if I went back to zero days, I would have to go through all the hell I felt the first seven days, 14 days, 30 days and so on.

Here are the other dire consequences I would have to go through again if I relapsed:

1) sleepless nights.
2) anxiety, anger, self esteem issues and mild depression would arise again.
3) beautiful women would be seen as sexual fantasies instead of real human beings.
4) Brain fog, lack of concentration.
5) Going back to constant masturbation would leave me tired and remorseful.
6) I would lose focus, ambition, my drive and my will to do better in life.
7) I would still be obsessing over my ex 17 months ago and the past.
8) It would probably lead me back to P.M.O.

Cannot back to that way of living because I have to think about my future for the next months, also why the hell would I want to go back to that life when I feel so happy with who I am now.