the dark night of the soul

has anyone had one before?, i did about a year ago.

 

Yeah what is it??

 

what's that?

 

It seems a game or something

 

to answer the question, its basically when you have a spiritual breakdown, a feeling of total abandonment by God, its a spiritual depression, during that time everything seems meaningless, something that brought you great joy before might look like a piece a trash needing thrown away, all happyness is gone from the world and from your life, its basically what a life without God feels like, its the most empty feeling i have ever felt in my life, I will share with you guys how mines started and how it ended. So about a year ago i was super into smoking and meditation, and especially porn, thats actually when it became a full blown addiction i would say, and when i say meditation i do not mean mindful breathing, i mean third eye, kundalini, spiritual stuff, and not spiritual as of in God but as in the universe. So over that year i had a lot of fun, smoking everyday, listening to music, watching porn, but at the same time it was weighing on me, my gut was telling me that you need to stop this, but once you are super into something you try to convince yourself it is fine. Anyways one day i was sitting in my room and it just hit me hard, i realized right than and there that i had sinned, that i was slowly turning away from God without knowing it, and before this happened i was having a lot of doubts, i felt as my connection with God was dying fast, i wrote about this in one of my poetry piece, anyways, that is when i believe God had opened my eyes, i remember falling to the floor and repenting so hard, i was weeping waterfalls, and that is when my spiritual depression happened. It lasted about a week or so for me, and during that time there was no comfort, everything was meaningless, nothing held value to me anymore, my anime figures that i love and take pride in just looked like plastic junk, i could not find happyness anywhere, i cried all the time, my family had no idea what was wrong with me, i told them i was being tested by God, which was not entirely accurate or to off, more like God set me through this dark night to set me on the path he wanted me to go on. I remember playing a board game with my family and i would just burst into tears, i cried every day all day, and eventually i made it through the woods to the other side. This is not a typical depression, it is when God turns his back on you so you can realize the error of your ways, or so you can grow stronger through him and become the instrument he wants you to be, my faith has never been stronger since than, i have tried my best to embrace the path he has laid for me, and i try to honor him every day, a good bible verse that would describe the dark night is, Jesus he "cried out in a loud voice … ‘My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?'” (Mark 15:34). Now ofcourse my suffering was only a fraction of his, but i believe it is the same kind of situation almost, or the same feeling atleast. There was a priest names saint john of the cross, he had this experience and wrote a book about it, here is a link to it start on page 15.http://www.carmelitemonks.org/Vocation/DarkNight-StJohnoftheCross.pdf

 

This is also a common term in fiction writing/outlining a story. The "dark night of the soul" is the period of the book/film in which all hope seems lost and the protagonist is at their lowest point, which generally comes right before a break-through.

 

Dark night of soul?
I have had some very long nights in my life there never pleasant but they do pass sometimes it was because of things outside of my control that my mind would not let up on and sometimes my health issues but THE DARK NIGHTS PASS, THEY DONT LAST FOREVER

 

they generally end when you have came to a final conclusion, when you are truly ready to leave, my grandad had a dark night and he ended up turning away from God when he left it, i clinged to God even harder, but the bible does say during times of trial some will abandon him and show their true colors.

 

THATS VERY TRUE ,IN TOUGH TIMES IN YOUR LIFE YOU WILL FIND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE AND ALSO HOW MUCH YOUR FAMILY REALY CARES IT WAS EYE OPENING TO ME. I didn't like the tough times but when I have gone threw them I came out knowing more about myself and who I thought were my friends and family then if life would have went completely smooth.

 

care to explain deeper?

 

never heard of the dark night of the spirit, but i can tell you the dark night was the saddest week of my life.

 

generally what i gathered is you are in it for about aslong as it takes to figure out why you are in it, my grandad was in it for years.

 

thank you, one thing i think you will find interesting is when my granddad came out of his dark night he was a new person, someone who hated God that is, he went a full 180 and cursed God and now he denies the bible, saying its just a way to live and none of it is factual, that shows you the dark night will make you or break you.