Hey NoFap-Community, I don't want to dublicate threads here, i read some threads about hypno/sissy/femdom-pr*n but non seemed to fit so i want to create to new thread. If I just haven't found it please point me to it. I want to write about a very specific genre of p*rn that is audio-only, and would be very interesting to here from guys who have dealt with this type of content and recoverd from it I will try not to get to specific in language to not trigger anything. I first registered on NoFap in 2017 (lost the access) - I wanted to stop porn and i temporarily succesfull - i maybe watched porn once every two months in 2018. Then i discovered sexual ASMR Audios. I got "interested" into HFO and wanted to try it (nice, what a great move.. ) This sexual ASMR Audios where very intense for me and felt more real like p*rn since it's not so violent and feels more intimate. But of course you don't stop at the vanilla content, as nobody of us did when he/she first watched p*rn Fast forward i goot hooked with the content of one female creator (Starts with a K, big in the ASMR Hypno Scene). And the Content of this Hypnotic Audios I listend to and she also produced got more bizarre. Now all of the sudden i was listening to all sorts of stuff: Femdom, Domination with Str*pon, Gendertransformation, tomboy, cei, some s*xslave to female domina and all sorts of crap - HOW THE FUCK, that escalated quickly The crazy thing for me is - this totally replaced visual-p*rn for me since this was far more intense for me. I am disgusted at all these topics but somehow the gave/give me the biggest dopamine rushes of all - also these femdom, str*pon, pegging stuff - somehow my brian liked/likes it since it is delivered from a beautiful woman voice. It really fascinates me how I got my brian wired with this content - and now of course it also affects my real life at this point. When you listen at to much of this femdom stuff it you carry this hidden-fetish into the real live interaction with woman. I do not care about what you think about differences between man and woman - but in my view content like this for men is highly unnatural and you can count the women on one hand that like "submissive"-man or wathever. Funny thing is this didn't really change my consious believes - i guess you could say I believe or try to according to traditional role images of men and women - as much as possible in todays world of course. This just makes me a big hypocrite - preaching something and then j*rking of to some wierd stuff in private. Anyways i really would like to get your thougts on this, did you successfully get out of this - only solution in my mind is to stay away from it best I can and hope that these wires in the brain get weaker over time Right now this corruption of my own values really presses on my well-beeing and i hope to clean up some staff with writing about it. Thank you! Much Love, MarcA
Hey, I thought about it the last hours. I guess the journey I described above is a classic example of seeking the novelty and the dopamine rush of seeking something new/forbidden. But for me this lead right into self-doubt about why I find those fethises so arousing - Futa stuff for example - WTF - but somehow my brian accepted it because the content was delivered from a beautiful woman voice that pretended intimacy. Altough I had the starting to like all this strange stuff like femdom, woman with strapon or even futa - i can remember when i listend to an audio where she presented a man in the story line (so the end of this would have been clear gay sex) - at least here i was disugsted at it immediatly and had to turn of the audio. But I see how this works.. that's a good example of a trap for me - and I am upset about the approach - bit for bit and slowly progressing you consume more extreme content, from light-femdom to strong femdom, to woman with strapon/futa to...) until the up to the point where you are in a constant state of extrem cognitive-dissonance and really want to stop but can't because the brain is in need for this rush. Man what a world
try to get the Hemi Sync tapes (the legit ones. youtube ones dont work!)theyre basically the army of light if hypno is the armies of evil. Hemi sync uses brain wave entrainment...but all for positive stuff,you define the journey there!
It is very bad and harmful for your streaks I broke my high confidential streaks just because of this mistake I consume moaning sex asmr and I was turn on and thought that real sex is going on for real and the imagination started to make the scene and I can't control me at that time and I broke my streaks just listen this thing once you at touch with any kind of p*** which may include straight touch of porn or any Tik tok hot video or anime, or erotic movie, seductive magazine, photos vedios, sex scene from movie, asmr, moaning. So your brain will stop working then you have to relapse as soon as possible otherwise it will impact you deeply because you start the process and never completed so if you want to master bit just watch and do masturbate that's it but never consume these videos on regular daily basis it will make more urges more and more and more and make you a dump loser so please try to understand me yes....
Thank you loneloan for the feedback! I will look into that! Into some of the asmr hpyno audios they used binaural beats but I think as you said that they mostly are of pure quality. Luckily the hypno stuff didn't really work for me, at least i think that. I never fully was in some kind of trans. But I definetly conditioned myself into liking something I really don't like - so at the end hypnosis still was succesfull Yeah man - Its a real trap! For me it also felt so soft, natural and so on. There is also no big p*rn industry behind, only individual creators, and so on and so forth. At the end I escalated from step for step to more extrem content and ended up with these fucked up audios i described in the first post! I am happy to successfully stay away from it since beginning of the month - but i definetly have very hard urges some time - the brain is screeming and begging for it. Writing and reading about it really helps, so thank you for your thoughts!!
I avoid normal ASMR. It fucked my brain and trigger myself. ASMR just reactivate the porn addiction mechanism. I don't care if people says that is just my opinion and ASMR really help you to sleep, you don't really need it. It's like we need tech even for sleep...are we able to sleep without music, sounds, asmr, ecc..? Btw i like to listen to music or sea waves when i sleep, better than ASMR that make me fal asleep with hard dick and wake me up with hard dick, nice way to start the day, with a porn trigger.
I really am happy someone brought attention to this and is warning others. It is basically like being a slave and being seduced of all matter. Hi I actually was hooked on JOI for a while especially on YouTube. I believe I fully recovered because I haven’t touched a video in months. These videos are more dangerous then porn it seems. The voice, scenario, playground is all a recipe for a relapse. No matter if it’s called ASMR it can be erotic and spexualized. Of course it’s meant for you to jack off, of course it’s meant for the woman who do it to gain internet fame, but most of all it’s wasting your will power and energy. You can see on YouTube most of these Woman have 500k views and only have three videos on the channel. Yet YouTube aloes this shit to stay on which I don’t understand and believe me I’ve reported countless videos, but the mods don’t even do anything. Ladies and Gentleman it’s not worth anything. This Woman doesn’t know you, she doesn’t care how you feel after a relapse, she can’t even see how aroused you are so it’s completely stupid.
Search on TWITCH category asmr take a look on what you find! Nah! Avoid to watch it, or you will relapse immediatly.
My last relapse involved videdo ASMR (I listened). They were not sexual, but the breathing and whispers, with the lovely accent all made me excited and turned on. Far from helping me sleep when my wife was away they made me more awake and looking for more. It escalated VERY quickly, to JOI. I followed the instructions to one, involving tasting my precum. I am horrified I got that far and did a new detestable act. It all goes to show me that there are new horrors and worse acts than I previously imagined. For me there's a clear link there between The ASMR and porn. I come back to the definition of porn being an image or audio used for arousal. Whether it is made with that intent or not is irrelavent for the addict. What matters is how we use it. In regard to our own values... This is something I should probably explore elsewhere but my crossdressing is related to porn... it took me 10 years of hard learning (in the 2000s) that I am a cis-man and not s trans woman. In my darkest times I was genuinely looking up gay porn, and using it to masturbate. I also planned many times - but never went, thankfully - to known gay spots; downloaded and used gay hookup apps... All i can say is that the more I've lived out my identity as a man - not in the stereotypical way but the way I'm called to be a man in my situation in life - the desire for gay stuff has gone. The times I've returned to crossdressing and porn are times when those desires have grown with increasing strength. For sleep, to cut the noise I use the Atmosphere app. It has loads of different sounds which you can mix and match at different volumes. My go to is rain on tent with thunder and fire, but you could have a beach sound with city sounds. If you wanted.
Exactly man! That's what got me so hooked as well! And for me as I still have very few experience with women in real life - this feeling of close intimacy with this lovely voice really hooked me. As if it wouldn't be bad enough the female creator started to mayde more extrem content like pegging... and right there on the one hand started to get more and more hooked on this stuff and also get a real mental dissonance because this really conflicts with my values. I guess that's why my brain gets the biggest rush out of it, because its something forbidden and dirty... Hey Mr. Monk, yeah that's a real problem! And like it was for me - once you you like it you leave youtube and search for more content which gets more extrem with fethishes. I remember once I had a break from this asmr audio stuff last year - than I listen to some soft-sexual asmr on youtube - "I mean it's on youtube... it's can't be that bad..", I said to myself Well, two weeks later I listened to my "favourite" content creator with all the despicable genres from hypno femdom hfo to pegging,futa again... man I feel like a clown because i get the hardest urges when I think about that i could listen to it now... But one step at a time! We are all adult men - you can't delete it completly from the internet. But the fact that youtube does not ban this stuff is horror - all this porn stuff sucks you in when you are still vulnerable as a kid or a young adult and may damage you for life!
@MarcA Bro i just needed a single asmr video for trigger myself (thinking that now it was innoque) and i fastly relapsed after a 65-70 days streak(!). Now is obvious that you need to avoid it just like you are just searching videos on p. sites!
Exactly! Youtube recognizes ASMR as only ASMR which is truly disgusting. So yeah young kids these day's are going to get their fix which is sad thanks to YT.
Youtube canˋt distingue perversion! Some days ago I was working and my co worker just showed me instagram I swar he showed me pornographic things. Iˋm not joking iˋve able to seen naked tits and lower parts in instagram stories! Thatˋs so insane, many years ago just s hidden nipple was forbidden now itˋs like a porn site.
Im happy to say I’ve never touched Instagram. Just don’t see any use for it. Unless if I was a traveler or someone people admired. Twitter is the same and even worse. I’ve literally seen Woman on there that want you to warship them, it’s sad really how ego driven they are because they have nothing else but looks and assets to their bodies.
Hi i just relpased again to the Shibby. i am 100 % sure you mean this Shibby in the pegging femdom stuff. I get the feeling i lose all control. After a few days of NoFap my brain just redirects me to her website. Like i dont even find it anymore. I realise (the hidden observer) that i should not do it, but thats the best part. Schould not do it is making it feel so good...! You get what i mean with this trigger. I am already damaged from my youth and got masochistic characteristics. But now i jsut feel like that puppet that dont get control back. I am very loneley and dont work on my goals thats why i try NoFap. But since i found the hfo asmr i never crave porn, dont crave M or O. I just want to listen to shibby again. And feel beiging wanted, needed, loved, important. Never experienced such initmacy with a women even before. It is very dangerous i think, i really feel driven back now every few days. Just listened again en binged 2 times withing the first 30 minutes to some nice looking porn stars.... Feeling all progress lost again wich already isnt much. But i feel hopeless to resist the hypno domina..... How can i get mentally stronger than just Give in>>>>???? (addicted to this for about 2 years listening to this) Now listening this is like the only moments i feel loved needed important and pleased. I am very miserable and just cant fight this anymore.
Bro Shibby is so dumb i remember listen to her audios many years ago and it was something to laugh off when she claimed I was her puppet and under her control.
Hey Depressed Addict, yes that's who I am talking about.. 3 Days ago I relapsed aswell unfortunatelly - the urges on Day 15 just got to hard for me. But what made it worse is that I couldn't just masturbate and finish NNN without Porn - No.. the cravings for the Shibby-Content got to huge - my brain wanted the dopamin rush.... Man.. I'am happy to talk to someone about this because I totally feel the same - it got me hooked and makes me feel great when I listen to it.. but deep down I really don't like this kinky stuff.. but still it gives me the biggest rush because it is somehow forbidden. I think the best we can do is to try to not listen to this stuff and stay on NoPMO as long as possible - and IF you relapse - don't binge! If you relapse after a 2week streak - relapse once and make it to two weeks again you are still breaking the patterns - eventually someday urges will get less strong, at least i hope so... What helps for me is writing a journal here on nofab - it reminds me daily why NOT to listen to it. I wish you a lot of strength @Depressed Addict!! Yeah I mean it is cringe, I thought/think that too, but then you listen to some other audios.. listen some more.. content gets more extrem and all of a sudden the content gets more extrem and you (atleast me) start to get hooked. I also have to say that the quality of the content got high quality if I compare it to years back.. that's the problem - at first it's only a little bit hypnosis and intimacy.. all of a sudden it's about femdom, pegging and so on
Thank you MarcA for sharing your story and struggles. I too have found the loophole of indulging in audio P, without watching any P. To me, it is the same thing, because I am indulging in the same lusts ( in my head, picturing things). Even if I wasn't picturing P in my head while listening, I don't think it would be any better. Because essentially it comes down to the same principle: I am unable to control the self . And if we can't even control our own bodies(the thing we are supposed to have most control over) we have lost, and are vulnerable to all other things. We blow about like the wind, driven by instinct. We become less human, less than what we were called to be, and become like the beasts, without ability to exercise the will. Solomon perceived this when he said: "Like a city whose walls are broken through is a person who lacks self-control." (Proverbs 25:28) You sound like you still have your conscience, and therefore you are still in the fight! I haven't "watched" any P in a while, but slipped from audio P as well a few days ago. so I am with you brother. We have got to abstain from what is hurting our souls. Replace these old habits with new, better ones. Replacement with good things, and human connection, are the answer. not just abstaining from the bad. As long as you are breathing and are alive, you have a dog in this fight!! Never give up!! You can choose. We can choose.
thanks for the answer and ice to have a conversation about this. I know Shibby stuff is really sad. But i have psychological damage from when i was a child, so i am kind of emotionally binding towards her security. The humiliation and appreciation at the same time is something in sub space where one just drifts away from all problems, pure dopamine rush etc etc. But it goes alot deeper. It feels more safe and loved than any other relation ship. I can judge myself that its sad and kinda makes me sick. Makes me feel weak and powerless. But it is very wel made and upgraded over the years. Some sweet voiced women not even in real life tell 1 what to do against ones will.... yeah i hate it, because i kinda love it so much wich created more psychological damage. It just binds into masochistic characteristics. I try to cure it with love, love towards myself, family friends at work college's but just platonic love ofcourse. Just 1 thing keeping me from dating etc. deep buried issues that i have been putting away with porn for over 24 years (I am 37 now) I feel fragile, people may judge but important to share experiences. I know its pathetic in some way. just escapeism behaviour. Have you to in any form been harmed when you were a child? Or you just got caugt in the web. Preventing myself from further binging. 15.00 today started day 1 again. I know should just never watch the website again. Thats the difficult part. Normal porn doesnt interest me anymore, just the emotional and intimate feelings..... Dont judge to hard on me... i know.... Thanks for the postitive answel, Good Luck to you to MarcoA!!
