2天 昨天 9 点 30 分睡的,今天 7 点 30 分都醒不来,显然,如果戒不掉就像吸毒一样,丧失工作一辈子,以及没有精力,仅仅这个理由就十分充分让我们向前走,不回头,我希望我有个良好的工作以及令人羡慕的老婆
Day 24 As announced i did more searching and reflection and started now with Dr. Trish Leigh. I think she is phenomenal. The videos remarkably clear. I started today my first coaching session which was terrific and toes exactly into my work I have done so far. I have also scheduled sex regular with my wife to establish a healthy sex life again. I will for now not do more than all two weeks and remain abstinent the other time in thought and action. I am deepening a number of life changes which I am convinced are key to overcoming porn addiction. I am starting today with day 1 of this new program. Since I didn’t lapse I will call it day 24 (1). But this is a significant point in my life.
Day 19 no PM. Stay strong Spartans. This is one hell of a fight we are in, and most of our friends and families don’t even know about it….but we do!!!
Day 69 completed. Yesterday was pretty difficult. I had this dream where I had urges to watch P and I was fighting it so bad but I was on the edge and my reasoning couldn't hold off the urges strong enough, but I didn't give in. It was just a dream, and when I woke up I felt no urges whatsoever. But it was disturbing. The day was pretty agitating. I tried to accept it and I didn't do anything that would give me any instant dopamine because I have learnt from my past relapses that seemingly harmless dopamine will easily lead me to PMO. I felt particularly vulnerable yesterday so I took extra care to keep my guard high. Hard fight, but made it! Strength to you all as well! Keep fighting! And I wanna share a happy thing with y'all: During the past two weeks I was with my relatives at their place and it was very triggering as always. Especially the marriage topic cuz I could only imagine being locked in a cage like how it is at my home. But with the help of my friends I could calm myself down and learnt to deal with the triggers without getting too hurt and also went with an open mind to meet the family of a person my family was talking about my marriage with. I didn't meet the guy yet but spoke with his family and they were so damn appreciative of my career goals, polite and supportive, so unlike my people. Speaking with them gave me a lot of faith that I can grow a lot with them. So much faith indeed! And my fears faded away. And I felt positive about going ahead. I later spoke with the guy too and he was just like his ppl, very patient, considerate, polite, appreciative and respectful. And guys, I can't ask for anything better at this point in my life -- a good environment and support from people on my career and everything that I have been fighting so hard for. So, I am gonna go ahead with this, the guy and his fam are also happy to take this ahead. So my ppl, if everything goes well, I might get engaged soon, for good!
Day 17 I was going to say a lot of things but I will want to save that later on once I complete my 100 days. It is a lot to ramble lol. I notice this but you can check in later instead of every day? @bettermeeveryday I wondering about you lady Spartan because of the missing days of check ins. I'm glad your still doing well. I glad you found a possible future husband through your message. Congrats to you if it turns out well! Trust me, I am also a bit struggling as well. But I'm keeping up. I know I can do this. The enemy is pulling me to do the deed in my mind. So I am fighting back and I almost slipped a bit on another thing regarding my email messages earlier. So I am here and fighting. Keep strong and I love your encouraging word. Let's go Spartans.
Thank you so much for your words!! And its great to see you fight the most difficult urges! Keep going spartan! U got this!