Thank you for your kind words and encouragement my friend will do, and thank you for reporting your success. You got another rank coming in a few days. Glad you're with me on this challenge!
Day 41 I observed that once I encountered with urges it won't pass away even if it get diverted for time being but next time it hit back with double the force and it continues to do it until it get what it wants. So any suggestions what must be done to cope with it I am vigorously following my schedule and I did running today so as to provide dopamine boost.
Great to have you here. Gym and studies are my pursuits too. Both require commitment and consistency. Then nobody can deny our success!
The urges come. And they go. Let them come. Let them go. It is attachment that is the problem. Because we don’t want to let them go. We want to hold on. Grab on. And get off. It’s just a practice of letting go of the getting off. Just keep practicing. You are doing great!
Check In Day 1(33), Hello Spartans! Today I woke up and said to myself I am sick and tired of living in doubt and fear and worry about my project. Sick and tired of holding my breath until I either fail or succeed. Sick and tired of worrying about what I’ll do if I fail. Sick and tired. So I just sang nonsense songs in the morning. Total nonsense. I just said whatever garbage was in my head out loud with a melody and tried to let it all go. And focus on enjoying my day. And seeing the positive moments amidst the darkness. I spent the last four nights staying up way too late. I skipped the gym. I had two drinks on Saturday night. A beer on Sunday afternoon. I ate poor. I felt like garbage. I made some ‘progress’ but I felt awful as a human. So last night I said I’m not being ruled by this anymore and I’m going to the gym no matter what in the morning. And it was the best decision ever. Honestly, exercise really is my salvation. It really lifts me up. I saw this gorgeous red haired girl on campus and instead of looking away in fear I kept eye contact and smiled at her and you know what? She gave me this super sweet smile, just like in music videos and movies. And I was like, yes! That’s what I’m talking about! So that’s all I’m gonna say tonight. I’m going to get some good sleep. Eat well. And tomorrow I’m going to live life on my terms. And maybe I’ll fail but at least I won’t be miserable. God bless!
Day 3. Good news, today is my first day of getting paid for my art. I stayed up all night drawing lol. Life is feeling fun again.
Love this. It's just what I needed to hear. I've been getting caught up in the "date just to date" mentality and it's not fulfilling.
Dude it's so cool your wife doesn't wear makeup. It's rare nowadays. Even good Christian girls are pampered up like porn stars. I was talking with my sister about it and she was like "what's wrong with makeup?" and then got very offended. I tried to explain that makeup is idolizing physical beauty, but she didn't want to hear it.
Love this. I've been thinking about Valentines Day as well. It's either a great day or a really shit day. I've had a change of heart recently though after learning more about Stoicism. It's about not being dependent on the world around you. Not being dependent on praise, status, money, food, drugs or even relationships. Because if we become dependent on external things and they are stripped away from us, we will be in misery. Here are a few thought provoking quotes from Seneca: “It is not the man who has too little, but the man who craves more, that is poor.” “We should not, like sheep, follow the herd of creatures in front of us, making our way where others go, not where we ought to go.” “We become wiser by adversity; prosperity destroys our appreciation of the right.”
Check in day 20. Got frustrated today about a girl I'm trying to date, but then took some time to reflect on what I value and am dependent on. I don't need to be validated by anyone or anything, because I am awesome for the person I am. If people don't see it, they are missing out.