Thanks for having me!

Dear NoFappers,

In a way I am very glad to be here. I think we'd all prefer it if we didn't need to be here, so what I am grateful for is this space, where it seems I can be open on my internal conflicting dialogues, cravings and challenges with masturbating.

For 6 years I have been trying to stop masturbating, I have been masturbating for about 13 years. It is such a hard activity to stop. Orgasms are peaceful, always available and so warm, but they are not worth the cost of low energy, low mental performance in many faculties, funding very unethical porn and allowing an attitude inside myself that objectifies people to thrive.

That is my career as Fapper. Hopefully, tomorrow is my last Day 1 (I masturbated mid-way through writing this), though I acknowledge that it definitely might not be because when I get that slight knot in the pit of my stomach I am pretty helpless to my urges. My internal reasoning is not always a strong enough force to fend it off. Perhaps having the support of a community and being able to put some space between myself and the inner demons by expressing them in words will allow me to become stronger and more disciplined.

I intend to start a journal tomorrow.

Thank you. All the best to you.