I just spent 10 minutes with an attractive coworker that I have always had some chemistry with. Now I have a very strong urge and desire for that "rush". I have felt pretty calm or flat so far but this now seems exciting and like I have been missing out on something by avoiding it. Is that just the addiction talking? A non-addicted male wouldn't have this? Should I just avoid these kinds of situations as much as possible? That seems like missing out on a fun part of life to me right now but I guess maybe it's for the best? Thanks, Nom
I think it's just the rush and it's a positive sign IMO if you're not fantasizing about porn. This is how normal brain should work but again it's very early in your recovery, so it could go both ways. Be careful if this feeling makes you think and crave porn.
Thanks for the advice. Definitely had some strong urges and rationalizations going on but better now and still on track. I am surprised how quickly and strongly that manifested, guess I need to be more vigilant going forward. Nom
I also have these rushes. I find that having to many of these 'rushes' may not be that helpful during rebooting.