Sun/Moon Connection On Semen Retention

It is common knowledge that the celestial bodies have a direct impact on our planet and, consequently, on our lives. Several ancient civilizations knew this fact very well. The Romans, for example, elevated the planets to the level of deities. In particular, heliolatry (sun worship) and solar deities can be found throughout history in various forms. Egyptians, incas and aztecs placed special emphasis on solar cults.

I always hid from the sun, nourishing fear and anger towards it, being totally uncomfortable during daylight. A completely nocturnal being.

"Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God." - John 3:20-21

Some months ago, I read a book called Sun and Steel by Yukio Mishima; to quote it:

"Little by little, I began to feel uncertain about the night in which I had placed such trust during the war, and to suspect that I might have belonged with the sun worshipers all along. It may well have been so. And if it was indeed so—I began to wonder—might not my persistent hostility towards the sun, and the continued importance I attached to my own small private night, be no more than a desire to follow the herd? The men who indulged in nocturnal thought, it seemed to me, had without exception dry, lusterless skins and sagging stomachs. They sought to wrap up a whole epoch in a capacious night of ideas, and rejected in all its forms the sun that I had seen. They rejected both life and death as I had seen them, for in both of these the sun had had a hand. It was in 1952, on the deck of the ship on which I made my first journey abroad, that I exchanged a reconciliatory handshake with the sun. From that day on, I have found myself unable to part company with it. The sun became associated with the main highway of my life. And little by little, it tanned my skin brown, branding me as a member of the other race."

Back at that time, I couldn't understand the meaning of those words; the colossal depth of this beautiful relationship between man and the physical manifestation of life itself...

After my last semen retention streak (longest one until this day), I started actively exposing myself to sunlight and it was legit changing my life ! Just felt an inexplicable attraction between my individual and that star, almost as if I was in love with it. Perhaps there's a correlation between retaining your semen and the sun. Our seed is an obvious male attribute and the sun has always been depicted as having a masculine polarity, being synonym of masculinity and virility.

Passing the mark of one month, I was sitting at night on my balcony, casually gazing into the sky, and felt a feminine energy emanating from the moon as I looked at her.

Then, I relapsed after 40 days... My night habits came back... The connection with the sun/moon is now entirely gone... Like I was now ashamed to show myself in front of them... I've been addicted to porn for about seven years now, I strongly think the damage done to my brain during puberty will never go away and it completely breaks my motivation in trying to beat this monster.

Anyway... Have any of you experienced something equal or similar ? Being more linked with nature, etc.