Starting Today

I started watching porn and masturbating when I was 13. I almost masturbated everyday, today I am 18 years old tried to stop my addiction many times but failed. I know I am objectifying women and I ashamed. When I was 13 I didn't know anything it was just a thing that used to give me pleasure, but today I know that porn and masturbation both are wrong for me. I used to be a great student but now my skills are depleted. I don't know what things I should do in upcoming days but I just know one thing and that is I can do it. My longest streak is 15, now it will be forever.

Suggestions are more than welcome.

 

I love this forum, you guys are awesome. Thanks for everything!

 

Day 1 :
Last day I slept early so I cannot go for M and I woke up early. Waking up early is usually a risk like when there is total silence, your mind diverts you. My mind knew that if I will M at morning then my whole day will get sucked up so I started studying. I studied for like 3 hours and then my mom woke up so the silence broke and risk to PMO reduced.
I took early bath as well so I can feel fresh all the time. Studied all day long. At the moment I am alone at home, to divert my mind I am writing this. While studying I got too many thoughts about getting physical with my ex(never been physical) and etc but at last all of them ended. Now I am alone, urge of PMO is being depressed before it raises. I know I can do this. Journal writing seems good, it will help me recover from this addiction and it will help me to get better at English as well.
Whenever I feel urge to PMO I read successful stories, when others can do it why I cannot?

Thank you to everyone!

 

My life is sucked up.
Morning of Day 2 : I will ruin my life, I was totally motivated to not to M but I found myself alone and I was done with studies too. I tried to stop myself but couldn't. At the instant of ejaculation I stopped at first then started again and done. I am ruining my life, how can urge be stronger than me.

What to do?