Starting Today

Hello everyone reading this,
I've been off and on to porn, hentai, fantasies ect... Last year i got injured playing sports and then two weeks later got out of a toxic relationship. I was depressed, contemplating suicide and just not happy with myself
I figured out that my problem was over excessive masturbation. It was hurting me mentally and physically. I had no motivation to do anything or even talk at all to anyone. I needed change so i started taking cold showers, distancing myself from my phone or any other electrical device in my room. Listening to motivational speeches on YouTube and committing myself to improving my mind and my physical being. I also got closer to God and reading the bible more and praying more. After i would say 5 months i relapsed again. Then after 5 weeks i did it again and now i feel myself getting addicted to it again.
I want to be how i was during those 5 months but instead of stopping continue to stay on track. I was myself and people started giving me respect, my physical capabilities started showing and people loved to hang around me. I want to be more focused and less stressed out and not have anxiety attacks or being worried 24/7. I would love any help i can get cause this addiction is sneaking back up on me and i can feel my brain deteriorating back into what it was.