Starting >NOW!<

Hey there. So I guess I'm here now, huh ... might as well introduce myself while I'm at it.

I don't really know where to start exactly. Or even how much text I can or am allowed to write down here. I suppose I'll just talk about my current situation and how I feel about it then.

So, let's start.
Ever since I've heard about NoFap I've been curious what it's about and why people do this. I landed on this website, read the articles, been thinking about my own habits then and came to the conclusion that I really am unhappy with my sexual habits.
It's not that I would consider myself an porn-addict, but I guess that's what many addicts say about their addictions, right?
I just feel so ... drained. Like, as if something has been taken away from me, and I'm just craving to fulfill a desire that isn't even really there, because it does not feel anymore as if I truly desire it. As if I just do it out of an old habit. But old habits die hard, I guess.

I tried not doing it before, but never succeeded for an extended period of time. Two weeks was my limit, and that was unbelievably hard to achieve for me. I'm longing to change that, and to finally break free from this addiction. To be a better self, because I feel like I could have been so much more, haven't I fallen to porn at such an early age. Thinking about that, I realized that I have never known anything better than porn for my whole sex life. Not as if I didn't have any real-life encounters, but more like "I've gotten so used to it, never done it any other way in my life, that it has become normal."

I'd say my sexual desire is pretty normal, right. I do not masturbate every day, but I can't go three days without doing it either. Though sometimes that changes, and I do it multiple times a day. Four, maybe five times. The worst part about this is that I NEED porn to do it. I cannot use my imagination for it nor other stimuli. It just isn't "as fulfilling" as to jump back to porn and do a quick fap.
I hate that it is like that, and I wish to change it. I want to have a healthy relationship to my sexuality and how I live it and rather use my own thoughts and imagination or just other stuff to get me off, toys for example. Just being focused on my body, and my body alone and enjoying that, and not constantly looking at a screen with porn on it while masturbating.

So yeah, I just want to quit. And I want to stay quit, but I don't really know how to do that. Maybe a buddy could help. Maybe writing this down here can help. I don't know yet, but I'm convinced I'll find it out on my journey.