Starting my first real job in April

I have dropped out of uni and had a few small jobs for a month or two here or there.

next April I am starting a job in a software company as a '2nd line support analyst'
Its my first role in the field I have been interested in for about a year and a half.

I am worried that I wont get the opportunity to upskill or that I will always be held back behind people with degrees. I have done everything myself so far, learning etc...

I dunno, I have a feeling of immense guilt that I didn't finish uni and that I wont ever know anything to the same level without it.

The job I am doing, I don't know if there is a pathway to upskill, or the company will consider letting me. I don't want to be stuck as a pajeet call person the rest of my life.

How do I keep my motivation for learning going while also at work. How do I keep my feelings of doubt and worthlessness from undermining my ability to succeed.

I came here from an r9k and pol background, so Im reconnecting to the world from a very black-pilled position. I don't have any friends, maybe some people I talk to online but I would consider them more acquaintances.

I was taking 300 mg of venlafaxine for chronic depression untill 3 months ago. I have come off them completely. I guess I am doing well, but Im still in the same place by most other metrics.

Maybe it would help to stop hanging out in discords which are full of people as depressed as I sometimes am.