Starting all over (semen retention) paws

Blessings u guys…. Lately I feel like I hit A reset after fapping 3 times in one sitting been giving in for so long I had A streak of 5 months no pmo buh jus recently last week I fapped and now I’m struggling with huge anxiety , weak legs , my balance is off, head tension , brain weird feeling, short breath , haven’t post on here in so long but I’m now writing this cause these panic attacks and anxiety is such A scary thing sometimes I can’t even sleep at night or go outside kind of got A heat intolerance and been dealing with fear but my biggest fear is not being the man I thought I ought to be because of all these symptoms , recently had to leave my job because this stops me from performing any good I’ve really grown tired of it all and depressed , I turned to god for help on most days but I feel like my flesh is weak and I give in at any moment to fap but I am on day 5 after my last time I M , all these symptoms it’s like having an auto immune disorder and I got comfortable with it for sometimes I been dealing with this since last year 2022 april when symptoms popped up out of no where I kno some been dealing with longer but I year feel like forever but anyhow if u reading this pray for me , hoping for A greater outcome